Today I realise that i really miss the person i fell in love with.....

I lost a friend today...a friends thats very important to me. One that i tried very hard to keep but i guess there are things that are more important to her that i have no choice but to let it go helplessly. All my life i thought that as long as im sincere and be nice to people, i'll make good friends and everything will turn out fine but reality shows me that it just doesnt work this way. Dont be mistaken..im not saying my frens are not good friends. Just that they dont really value me as much as i expected. Maybe I have high expectations of people. But i just dun get it. whats wrong with society. When im nice to a fren their partners find me a threat. When im nice to members of the opposite sex people say cheehong. When im nice to my friends they take me for granted. Like wth... I dunno who to believe anymore. Who are the ones that are truly my friend? When i truly show concern for this particular friend she thinks that i talk to her only when no other friend wanna talk to me.... so all along im such a person in her eyes. I cant believe it but im losing faith in everyone.. I dunno when is the next time another person comes and tell me i ant be ur fren anymore.. I dunno if im able to handle it

I'll bloodly fight for it