Looks like im goin to go thru yet another lonely xmas.. People are so busy nowadays that its so difficult even to talk to someone not to mention meeting up. Sometimes even frens that u consider close dun even have the time to let have a mean with u or even speak to you. And it even makes u feel more alone in this harsh and cruel world when the person u care for most doesnt even bother about you and is busy meeting up with their frens and the impression they giv is something like ' im v busy meeting different groups of frens everyday' and they wun even take bits of their time out for u and they are supposed to be the people that u care for the most. Firstly, you might be the one caring for them and they might not have the same concern for u or 2nd, they jus take u for granted. Even when they are at home they will have alot of stuffs to do like chatting with someone else on the phone, doing sth online and a million more excuses. And they are supposed to be on holiday and they seem more busy than dose working

Since im not expecting a nice xmas for myself i hope ppl out dere can really enjoy a merry xmas

I haven been blogging for more than a month alrdy... and this month alot of bad things happen which i do not wan to further tak about it anymore becoz it will bring extreme sadeness to myself. I dint expect the baddest time of the year to be after my army days. And i feel that all these incidents have changed me to another person...someone who i dun really noe oso. Its scary if the last time u talked to me is a mth ago and then u talk to me now. I tink that u might actually have a qn in the bac ur mind like ' is that really alvin?' Frens.... im losing myself and yah the situation is quite bad.