Fell sick... fever since sunday. I guessed i mus be too tired. Rehearsals both saf day and ndp.. and omg ndp rehearsal ended at 10pm lo. i booked out at 11pm..so late on a saturday. late nights and also running in the rain to bar-celona that night to catch the spain vs saudi arabia match. Finally having a break frm all the work altho i din wan it to be in this manner la.
Anyway SAF day is jus 2 days away.. hope life will be simpler after that. With ndp only about a month away, im 4 mths away frm ORd. And hope we can make the holiday trip to taiwan.
Wun be having any weekend this week. =( and the World cup is ending... like so soon.. why cant it be longer. Isnt it exciting to hav matches to watch every day.

Haiz...i dunno wads with me... I feel like a kid throwing random tantrums now and then. I'm complaining about almost everything. Altho some people might not think so.. but i felt that i've worked very hard for the past 1 month or so. Saf day rehearsals.. Ndp rehearsals. Im totally tired out.. plus the once in 4 yrs world cup. which means late nights.. hungry nights. Besides all these, i feel that i have not been like talking to my frens for a long time. A long long time...so long that i felt forgotten. Actually, i jus realised that some of the people that i consider or once considered close to me actually dint really bother about me. Like i dun exist anymore. izzit that i have been too engrossed with work? Work work and work and in the end i gain nothing and i lost so much.
I really exhausted. I really need a hug badly.. to giv me the strength to go on with life. but i aint getting it. In fact im jus ignored? I feel so unwanted... like i dun live a life.. jus merely existing. Somesort of like something left in the storeroom. You know its dere but u have no nid for it. And as times goes by u forgot that u have this particular thing in some corner of ur storeroom. Wad nonsense am i saying.... Anyway i jus need some love. seems so hard to get some nowadays.

I NEED YOU!

Dunno why am i blogging at such an hour. Its like 4am in the morning. another 1hr plus i'll be leaving for tioman on a holiday wif wj vic gy and ht. I've always been v excited about goin to tioman but out of nowhere i suddenly have a strange feeling that i am leaving alot of things behind when i go on this trip. Firstly, i am worried about the SAF day exco vetting on friday. The last rehearsal has been very bad and i have been brooding over this over the last 2 days. the junior batch are not putting in effort to do their drills. We still have a reputation to keep. Our core job is to do drills...wun it be a disgrace if our drills are worse than the commandos navy airforce? Junyi said that was the worse marching he has ever seen. Being in the contingent, i feel shits coz i noe the performance sucks. Dunno if i can do anything about it.

2ndly, Its the world cup. Going on a holiday means i might hafto miss a few matches. means lesser gatherings cheering drinking catching up wif frens.
3rdly It means im spending lotsa $. Feeling bad im spending so much. I even went to eat fish and co wif ry kelly and shuan on monday lo. Its like $20+ la..
Lastly, its u i worry about. goin on a holiday means i cant visit u for a few days. means im not goin to see u for awhile. cant u feel that im a lil reluctant everytime i leave..... Its such a shame u cant go for the trip lo =( No matter how enjoyable the trip is.. I cant share it wif u lo.. take care ya.. and hope u like the snacks i brought.

we had June Cog on sunday. The guys are sad coz everything went well until the rifles clashed and fell during the exchange. I was waiting for them to go for dinner but they werent in the mood alrdy. Monday off. It was a cool day. We had uniform party haha. Wearing our jc uniforms to town. Feels great to be in uniform again. Reminds me of my many happy days spent in Jc. We took lotsa fotos. Camera whoring is cool haha. Tuesday back at camp was a slack day. i tink i slept thru the whole day. Wed we went to SAFTI for a tough day again. Lucky i get to relax at nite. Went to bugis to accompany rong yue to shop. and he was so happy coz he caught a porcupine in dose machines in the arcade. He named it POrky. lolx. The world cup finally started. But i dun really feel the atmosphere lei.

Haiz i guess i mus be thinking of you again. Everything without you is jus not rite. Thinking back we had lotsa memories but we dint have much fotos. Wonder how are you now.. Hope life is great for you.

This week was like hell. Its so tiring. Rehearsals one after another. On Monday, we had our last internal SAF day parade rehearsal in camp. Because its the last we had to do like v good so we kept doing it over and over. On Tuesday, it was spDs 40th anniversary training. Then i had to stay in coz wed we'r goin to SAFTI for SAF day rehearsal. As mentioned wed we went to SAFTI. It was hot like i was in some part of Africa la~ from wednesday onwards. everyday is lidat. and i hate rehearsals at SAfti. 1st the weather is hot 2nd we have to wake up like 5am? 3rd i dun like SAF day. Thursday morning was ndp rehearsal at kranji camp. As usual hot weather ...= hot-tempered, easily irritated. Afternn COG rehearsal. Kena scolded by RSm for no particular reason. Friday SAf day rehearsal at SAFti again. saturday ndp rehearsal at national stadium. Sunday COG parade at orchard. Totally no rest lo. Lucky im goin to have off on monday ha.

Friday nite went to town... had carls jr at marina sq wif brian kelly and rong yue. and we went bugis to shop and ended up playin dota. I feel that im deproving as i play lei....v sad =( Today went PC fair wif pat and theres like nth lo. haha had a ride in Kelly's car for 2 days in a row. v rare lo. Then i went out alone in the afternn. went to bugis to see yang chen Lin lo! haiz din get to have a foto wif her.... Shes so cute. Then i went to chinatwn to pay the rest of the $ for the tioman trip. Yea im goin on a holiday! Its like another day i spend alone outside. haiz

Happy BIRTHDAY rAinie!!!