Since the compaq AMD compy.. i felt that i have developed an even deeper passion for dota. Some people might think that playing computer games is a complete waste of time and energy. These people tink that time should be spent on other things as they deem playing these games as no learning value. However I see many advantages in playing dota that not many others see. I do not know about other games tho. hmmm heres a short description about dota for those who dunno wads it about. Its a game usually 5players take on another 5 in taking down their so called 'base' in the course killing enemys. This base is fortified by towers some sort like defensive structures. eg. cannons in modern day war. Each player will choose a hero and different heros have different spells and abilities. Then we began our journey to destory each other. Ok first since dota is a team game, I feel that it inculcates teamwork and co-operation in us. Good teamwork means half of the game is won. 2ndly, i tink that it can allow as to judge a person's character. say.... a very selfish person would go for kills rather than help teamates to break towers and win the game. These people tend to go for personal glory rather than to win it as a team. 3rdly.... I feel that dota is a v high IQ game. So it some sort of let me improve my intelligence as i learn more things in the course of my game. Strategies of how to go about destroying their base. When i have nothing to do its always like dota on my mind tinking of better strategies and hero combinations. So if i have any frens out there who shares the same passion as me may want to email me as i am currently getting more people to join my team. =D

Finally the end of a disasterous week. I had a bad working week. First it was the off pass issue that caused a some sort like an argument wif Lt charlie. He wanted me to use my own off for medical appointment but i din care and i went ahead wif the off-pass instead. He found out and was unhappy. and then the extra duty thing. Suddenly the duty book registered one more duty for me on wed which i had no idea of. Then i din turn up for duty and caused a lot of trouble. Now they are investigating into the issue. I have nothing to do with it. Its them who screwed up and expect me to take the blame? Ha and i did sPds on thurs. It was ndp training. Happy i can do spds again. I think my drills are still cool except that i cant take my eyes off the weapon as i rotate.. will try harder to. Yesterday went for out camp run at west coast park lo. And then compaq AMD dota compy at cineleisure... Haiz lost at the quater-final for the day...saded. I tink part of it was my fault.. as i drafted veno for nth. was not concentrating lo...zzZ lost to S.B. ha but i tink we all played well tho. done for now gotta go bac camp.

I did my istana duty on monday..Its like the usual boring day at istana but im feeling tired and uncomfortable tho. We watched 3 dvds on monday. Casanova was a nice movie. He was clever thats all. Then there was Hoodwinked. Its a cartoon show about red riding hood. rather lame.. And the last show was Keeping mum. I thot it was a farni nice show like kelly said but it wasnt that funny. Maybe only at certain parts. Then we went back to camp and went to mac wif sgt irfan and joseph rong yue. Seaweed fries are back. its nice u noe. And then back to watch chunjing play dota. loL his micro is v bad ha. Today i took my IPPT waking up at 6 altho i slept at 1am last nite.... I still got silver tho. Everyone was like shocked that i can do 10 pull-ups. Its bcoz i keep failing pull-ups last yr due to my wrist injury. Now its better and i can do 10 ha. $100 chee-ching! the sound of the cash register ya noe. Then i felt it was unreasonable that Lt charlie said that i shld use my off to go for medical appt when the usual practice at platoon1 was they wld give off-pass. the reason why istana platoon use their off is bcoz they have alot of offs. But im only there for like 3 wks and i only had 1 day and he wanted me to use the only 1 day i had. I din't care and i went to my spec to take a off-pass and my platoon1 PC signed it and then Lt charlie came back and gave me a pissed face and said something like ' since u had decided to go ahead wif wad you tink i hv nth to say' but he is really a inflexible person la. The whole of his own istana platoon doesnt like him lo. Hope i can go back ceremonial soon. 2 more wks. yep shld be goin to see The art of Seduction tml nite wif the guys and our newly promoted instructress kelly ha. Always when im alone i will have this feeling of missing everybody.. miss my Ncc mates my class 4d at ahs. miss my Jc class and ppl frm the surrounding classes. miss my 1st 3 mths ppl...we had so much fun together. Miss my bowling mates and times when we roamed about after bowling and miss....her... wonder hows shes getting along now..

Its another sad Sunday nite when i would have to go back to camp coz i have istana duty tomorrow. And to make it worst i hafta take IPPT on tuesday. Luckily my nxt duty is on friday, that gives me a few days to rest. However there will be out-camp run this sat at west coast park, and i have compaq amd dota compy at 11 at cine hope can make it. Quite an eventful weekend i can say. Altho i had duty on good friday, i met junyi rongyue and guys after my duty in town. Then we ate dinner and chilled out at friends. And they shopped quite alot too. And sat i went to e2max wif Qj to watch the the compy day 1. As expected DsD and mVp3 qualified. Then met vix and wJ for dinner at pepper lunch and we went to clarke quay to meet huiting. went to a pub at circular rd and watch arsenal match there. Today i went bowling wif guanming, kelly and greg. Haiz i tink i have become quite rusty alrdy. My highest game was only 174 and the rest sucked. Hope i wld have quite a good week ahead.

Haiz... Its like a vicious cycle. I feel that im back to the days when i always fear tomorrow. Tml is isatana duty day again. And i have another duty on friday..which is good friday. Everybody is out havin fun la~ and poor me stoning outside istana. I feel shits lo. And the nxt duty is monday which means i gotta book in on sunday nite. Im already having a shorter weekend than the others by mounting duty on good friday and they'r gonna make it shorter by taking away my sunday nite....Dunno how they plan one la..! Im so tired after yesterday lo life run followed by Guard of Honour rehearsal and then the actual in the afternoon and we reach back camp at 8 lo... Luckily i made it in time to orchard to get my white razor and white exactmat! ha look so cool lo. And I spend today rotting at home again... Sick of this stupid feeling. Maybe i think thats why the guys are telling me to get a gerfren. Its not that easy u noe. Sian and im booking in tonite. I suddenly have the urge to go travelling. Taiwan..! maybe i shld go find some travel guide to see any nice places in taiwan that is fun. Then i can plan and we shall go at the end of the year or after NDP. Yupz this friday Junyi and gang said they'll wait for me to dismount and we'll go pubbing ha then we'll go shoppin on saturday. thats if the schedule doesnt plan the dota compe on this sat. Hope it'll be next week. Shoppin wif them is quite enjoying noe... Din noe shopping can be that enjoyable. i jus went shoppin wif them last sat and i bought a tee frm topman. It was expensive tho. Hope the remaining of the week wun be so boring.

Today is a weird day. Everybody seems to be unhappy. Woke super early to attend CO parade today. Its been quite some time since i wore my MP no.3 ha and i look nice in it. lolx. From CO's tone i tink hes not v happy wif some of the commanders. He must have heard some of them commenting about his style and methods of doing things. The guys came back in the afternn before lunch. For some particular reason, Kelly cant stop (niao-ing me). I dunno how to put that in words but jus like kept on saying things to oppose me on purpose. Mayb im doing that to him every other day and so he decide to use it on me. Then in the afternn i went teaching the new basic guys Orientation Drills(OD). Truthfully their standard sucks. You might think im harsh but im not understating anything. Cant blame them coz this is only their 2nd week. and they are goin to pass out OD this week, wif that kinda standard. We are also part of the express batch which did it in 2 weeks but bcoz our instructors back then were v strict and demand alot from us. Thats why we can produce good drills. Mayb they shld have more tough training to make them better. Coz normally the standard will drop once ppl pass OD. And if they pass at this standard i cant imagine how low they will fall to. But one of them personally came to thank me for teaching him. So nice of him rite... So happy that they appreciate my teaching. 3rd person in a bad mood... someone online today doesnt wanna chat... I guess she mus be unhappy or somethings bothering her altho she said shes fine. Anyways if i pry i tink i'll be irritating. Actually jus wanted to tell her something. Nevermind mayb shes not fated to noe and might say it doesnt concern her anyway. Hope she'll be fine anyway. 4th person in a bad mood is me! My com suddenly crashed for no reason! and i had to resort to using my sis com...zz and the songs that Junyi needed are in my com.. and it jus wun start.. I hope it will be fine. I cant live without it lo..! Junyi........how??? wo dui bu qi ni...! Hope tml it'll be ok suddenly ha. And ya Friday got halfday!!!! all thanks to Pat ha! Mus persuade Kelly and Junyi to go see sinseh for their wrist and knee respectively before something happens to them lo!

Im back home on a tuesday! Actually reluctant to come home jus now coz Kelly wanted to go eat Gelare(is that how you spell it) and shuans treating haha. Wasted! They were telling me Junyi is going too..but hes here on msn! guess he din wanna be a lampost as Kelly and shuan enjoy their romantic ice cream fest together. Today was quite boring wif me sleeping alot again. Yesterday i did my first istana duty and it turn out that it wasnt so bad after all. Better than i expected. We played puzzle fighter on the Playstation in the guardroom and i won everyone ha! Im talented you noe... Standing at main entrance was fine coz its not like in camp when you really cant move and that. You can turn ur head bits to look at the people walking by and the Cisco guards would go' wei~! see that ger in the green skirt! shes pretty!' ha and the Cisco people would come and chat wif ya! and i was singing to myself most of the time.. chatting to tony occassionally oso. Overall i had quite a good time la. But sadly my next duty is this coming sunday...=( SUNDAY u noe!!! hope i wun get to do wif the seniors. Its a senior-junior generation gap. We dun really like them and they dun really like us too. Yupz. Dota Compy coming soon. Its next weekend! Im so excited. Hope we can form a team as we are still one person short. Really hope we can compete in this upcoming one. Im hoping to win something. Jus dun meet Mvp and WeCookGrass and Sacriliege early and i tink we'll be fine ha. Besides....did i mention im talented?

I dunno wads wrong with myself. Im feelin quite frustrated today. Since i entered NS, i suddenly realised that i've started doing things alone. I used to be a friends person. Someone who needs frens around all the time. Maybe NS has changed me quite alot. Coz im spending almost the whole week in camp, i'll feel that if i dun enjoy my weekend, i'll feels shits. So days like this when im spendin the whole day rotting at home will make me hot-tempered. But i've realise that i've been goin out alone. Doing stuff alone. Like i would go watch the guys do COG alone. Bowling alone and jus walk around wif my mp3 player in parks and places similar. I'm not lidat in the past. Missed the times when i was studying. The times in AHS. Havin fun almost everywhr. The NCC times when we went to many places like pengarang cycling trip and the artifical lake in malaysia i forgot wads the place called. Fun times like school annual camps where farni stuff like the alan-yisheng brawl and the ah huat chase would happen occassionally. Missed the Mjc times too. Missed the lectures wif kahkee and boshen and also ms quek. The econs tutorials when ms quek would always aim me and kahkee and we would giv stupid answers. The canteen and library times wif melvin. The times when we watch as people like melvin and Qj died asking gers for handphone no.s The times in the 4th level toilet when kahkee eddie junkiat sang how wld hv a water war. The bowling trainings wif mel and irv and hangin ard twn wif them. The A divs when we werent concentrating on bowling but looking at gers frm other schs instead. Or maybe its only me concentrating on bowling dats y i got the high scores. Im decent k.. But i remember there was this v ger frm Njc during J1..v pretty! bowling together on our lane. Haiz come to tink of it i was so happy back then but like i took it for granted. It was only after i entered army that i realised how wonderful my studyin times were. Nows everyones so busy that i dun tink i've seen kahkee melvin and guys more than once a mth..sometimes even none. Jus hope the army days would end soon. 7 more mths. But i guess i wld miss my bunk mates after we all ORD..

Jus got home... din really do much today. Had some dota matches. Shadow Shaman! ha. Went out for a movie. 2 become 1. by yang qian hua and ren xian qi. Quite a farni show. Its like telling us to take the most negative thing dat can happen to u positively. Its like yang qian hua contracted breast cancer and thru ren xian qi's encouragement, she took it quite well and carried on wif her life and went for the op. Then went to dota again... and lost to some idiots coz of feeders. I got relic at lvl 9 lo. still can lose. So we went to wj's place for usual sat nite mahjong. Finally after a luckless or i mite say super suay march, my luck is finally bac on April ha. I won $$! Saw xian zhi today. Hes wif his a gerfren. Envy them.. its like everyone is attached and im still looking for my special one. Mayb its fated i'll lead a lonesome life. Thinkin and thinkin and i thot of you again... missed you. You are my missing piece. But you are your own piece... so i guess we are jus not fated to be together. SAded!! mus book in on sunday nite le. First istana duty on monday...zz Stoning at the entrance like some stoopid person. Hope i'll do something meaningful before i book in... I wanna go bowling!