i love rainy days... since i was a kid... I used to tink that the rain was sent by God to cleanse this planet when i was a kid. During those years..whenever it rains i would jus like run and jump ard in the rain when the other kids would rush indoors. As i moved on to secondary sch. i started to have to travel to sch alone... i always insisted dat i wun bring an umbrealla along no matter how my mum persuaded me so. She would always say bring in case rain.... when she is on her way to the storeroom to get the umbrealla i would then jus rush out of the door to the lift and i would nv hafto bring the umbrella along. After a few similar incidents she gave up trying oso. Whenever it rains i would be walking in the rain no matter how big it is... Its quite a distance frm the mrt station to sch... Now that im a few years older.. im in the midst of alot of problems that i wouldnt care about when i was a kid.. Things like frenship problems work stress study stress bGr problems. I wished that the rain would come occassionally to wash the pain away from me.. Its good that these few days its been raining.. Becoz when i stand in the rain i wun noe that the water on my face are tears or are they jus rainwater...

the past week was alright...the SAR21 fam shoot and stuff except dat i have a fren dats feeling very very sad. Felt bad that i couldnt do much to help alleviate her mood. I tried but it doesnt seem to work. Mayb im not good at consoling others bah.. no matter its my frens or bunkmates or buddies i always feel helpless when they are sad or angry. How i wish i am a gifted sweet talker. In this way people around me can be so much happier and in turn i will be happier too. dun u think so?

Dun b so sad k.... if u ever see this

CoG week shld be my last le bah...

I dunno why but i jus feel unhappy.... Even tho im like goin to ORD in 2 mths time but i still feel v sad. i tink dat my grp of frens are not as close as we use to be. They hav their new frens and gerfrens and new pastimes and hobbies dat we no longer share the same feeling dat close frens shld have. Some indulge in bad habits which result to money wasting and ended up havin no money to go out together wif the usual grp. Others would like to spend 25162738 hours in front of the com instead of goin out wif us while the rest desperately finding new ways to land a gerfren dat they dun bother about the others anymore. Looking at them and tinking bac on our past days makes me feel depressed as i wonder wad makes us become like this.
In additon some of the people dat i feel dat they are close to me ( it might be a wrg feeling) are either lost somewhr out dere and no longer talk to me or get to meet up in the past 2 yrs or are actually not close to me at all.

I nid a pill dat can allow me to forget everyone i noe and live a new life...