Ok it has been a long time since i last blogged and i dunno why is it that everytime i blog im either feeling angry or sad or somehow negative haha.. mayb when im happy i forgot abt blogging .....

Now it is not a good start to the year.. in a way its one of the worst thruout my 20 years of life. Out of the 31 days in jan i dun tink i can even find a day that i can say i have a gd day. Firstly some problems came up between me and a v good fren of mine due to some relationship stuff and thrust me dun ever get into this kinda problem wif ur fren. Since anyone is able to view this i shall not elaborate because its a sensitive issue. jus noe its the ultimate depression of my life. You will noe it someday if u gonna lose a gd fren of yours who u noe for ard 7-8 yrs. Nevermind anyway the way he sees me or the way he tink abt me is different alrdy..im somesort of like a baddie....

Next, being outta cash due to cashflow problems... this is another serious problem which mayb more ppl mite face... i cant finish counting wif 5 fingers of many close frens ard me are facing this problem oso. altho some of the reasons for coming into this situation is really like u mite say 'they deserve it' but me being a good fren.. i always v v helpful to all the close frens i have. So u are not a close fren of mine u might wan to consider being one.. These are the resons ppl have or things ppl do to fall into the poverty situation.
1. gamble on soccer betting and lose and trying to win bac the money and ended up losing more
2. calling some overseas country and not knowing how much it costs
3. the company ur working in doesnt really pay well..ok i mean the pay is pathetic.
4. ur in a bad mood and u do every other thing dat costs alot of money like drinking massive amounts of alcohol trying to get urself drunk.
No offense cuz im not trying to pinpoint anyone but yah haha i still help these ppl becuz i care for them altho im one of dose in the situation as well. (im in situation 4 and somehow 3 oso)

After so many things happening in the past few months i realise im actually i v friend-orientated person. Like i care for my frens more then my family i dunno why. Im always dere to help them wif problems altho sometimes i made a mess out of it as well. and I dont giv up on them. Ok im not boosting dat im a v gd fren but haha i noe im a gd one. Wad are the things u find in a fren?
1.they hlp u when u are in nid. (ok..i do hlp)
2.they are patient wif you when u throw a temper at them (yah most of the time i am)
3. they listen to you pour ur woes out even if its like 3am (ok altho sometimes im half aslp)
4. and they try to talk u out of ur bad habits. ( definitely do)

dats all for now...
=( its nearing valentines day and i dun have a valentine. sobz
mayb i can consider gaying out wif rongyue le. Qing ren da shou xun..