i dunno why im saying this but i mus say it! -> i'm fucked up. My heart sinks with every ticking second. Illusions of what might be forms in my head. Half of me tells me to give up and get on with life. The other half of me tells me to persist on. I dunno what should i do.
First let me list the reasons why i tink im fucked up.
1. Im indecisive
2. Im selfish and inconsiderate
3. I lost most of my frens because i neglected them
4. and then i blame them
5. No one loves me
6. i keep losing nowadays even 1v1s
7. because i let my emotions get the better of me
8. im poor
Thats why i tink im punished to lead a lonely life for the above reasons.