I dunno wads wrong with myself. Im feelin quite frustrated today. Since i entered NS, i suddenly realised that i've started doing things alone. I used to be a friends person. Someone who needs frens around all the time. Maybe NS has changed me quite alot. Coz im spending almost the whole week in camp, i'll feel that if i dun enjoy my weekend, i'll feels shits. So days like this when im spendin the whole day rotting at home will make me hot-tempered. But i've realise that i've been goin out alone. Doing stuff alone. Like i would go watch the guys do COG alone. Bowling alone and jus walk around wif my mp3 player in parks and places similar. I'm not lidat in the past. Missed the times when i was studying. The times in AHS. Havin fun almost everywhr. The NCC times when we went to many places like pengarang cycling trip and the artifical lake in malaysia i forgot wads the place called. Fun times like school annual camps where farni stuff like the alan-yisheng brawl and the ah huat chase would happen occassionally. Missed the Mjc times too. Missed the lectures wif kahkee and boshen and also ms quek. The econs tutorials when ms quek would always aim me and kahkee and we would giv stupid answers. The canteen and library times wif melvin. The times when we watch as people like melvin and Qj died asking gers for handphone no.s The times in the 4th level toilet when kahkee eddie junkiat sang how wld hv a water war. The bowling trainings wif mel and irv and hangin ard twn wif them. The A divs when we werent concentrating on bowling but looking at gers frm other schs instead. Or maybe its only me concentrating on bowling dats y i got the high scores. Im decent k.. But i remember there was this v ger frm Njc during J1..v pretty! bowling together on our lane. Haiz come to tink of it i was so happy back then but like i took it for granted. It was only after i entered army that i realised how wonderful my studyin times were. Nows everyones so busy that i dun tink i've seen kahkee melvin and guys more than once a mth..sometimes even none. Jus hope the army days would end soon. 7 more mths. But i guess i wld miss my bunk mates after we all ORD..