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2012-01-04T23:49:00.003+08:00

Why...

What happened to us?

We dont even talk as much as we used to now....

We use to text alot... before u start work.. during work before lunch.. during work after lunch and we would go off work together and have dinner and walk around. and text after we got home.

Where has all that gone?

You used to tell me things that are bothering you..

But you dont anymore.

Sighhh

You used to tell me whenever you're not feeling well...

Hope your health and everything else is good now..

I miss

2010-12-05T04:37:00.002+08:00

sighh.... i shld let her know that i like her... but i dunno how.
I guess im afraid

2010-07-14T01:23:00.001+08:00

Im arguing with you because i miss you

2010-05-01T19:50:00.001+08:00

terribly emo...

i just realised the reality of not going to be able to see her again

2010-04-22T01:45:00.002+08:00

Today I played puzzle fighter...
on my own
and i am reminded of lots of things
and of someone
i smiled for a moment
and then a frown appeared on my face and it stayed dere all day
=(

2010-03-09T23:31:00.002+08:00

Today I realise that i really miss the person i fell in love with.....

2010-03-01T03:02:00.002+08:00

I lost a friend today...a friends thats very important to me. One that i tried very hard to keep but i guess there are things that are more important to her that i have no choice but to let it go helplessly. All my life i thought that as long as im sincere and be nice to people, i'll make good friends and everything will turn out fine but reality shows me that it just doesnt work this way. Dont be mistaken..im not saying my frens are not good friends. Just that they dont really value me as much as i expected. Maybe I have high expectations of people. But i just dun get it. whats wrong with society. When im nice to a fren their partners find me a threat. When im nice to members of the opposite sex people say cheehong. When im nice to my friends they take me for granted. Like wth... I dunno who to believe anymore. Who are the ones that are truly my friend? When i truly show concern for this particular friend she thinks that i talk to her only when no other friend wanna talk to me.... so all along im such a person in her eyes. I cant believe it but im losing faith in everyone.. I dunno when is the next time another person comes and tell me i ant be ur fren anymore.. I dunno if im able to handle it

I'll bloodly fight for it

2009-11-22T11:51:00.002+08:00

Some things need a change around here....
Its all about being a true friend no just engaging in mindless jealousy
sighh... I really do love you
why else wld i keep sending messages even when you dont reply
why else wld i keep all the movie tickets
Maybe thas why they say in life there is always someone you cant quite forget.
Its stuck at the back of your mind for life

2009-10-21T03:42:00.001+08:00

Now you are getting a taste of your own medicine....
what i got is 10 times of that

where is it...

2009-09-30T01:04:00.002+08:00

Something is definitely missing and thats why i am feeling this way all this while.
Im still drowning in it.
It never left me
I tell myself theres a reason for it
but i always lose the argument with myself.
It doesnt matter how many drinks i have.. cuz in the end i still go to bed at nite goin thru every detail... the what ifs.. the whys...

2009-09-22T11:36:00.000+08:00

because i miss that idiot more than anyone on the planet

2009-08-26T21:20:00.001+08:00

I really need someone who understands to talk to me...
cuz im feeling really terrible.
I know im missing something important and that i can never have it.
im disgusted with myself

2009-08-06T11:53:00.000+08:00

Feels like i've just been on a rollercoaster...
Love is like one isnt it?

2009-06-28T14:13:00.000+08:00

Somewhere in my heart im always.....
dancing with you in the summer rain~

2009-06-18T14:22:00.001+08:00

sigh......
I seem to lose my patience damn easily nowadays....
pull me out pls

2009-05-30T03:17:00.001+08:00

Im no longer special to you anymore... not even the least tiny-est bit alr

2009-05-28T23:30:00.002+08:00

perhaps nobody come here anymore so nobody wld noe...

yah maybe shes right that i make ppl feel irritated sometimes..
pek chek they wld call it. a few ppl says so too altho i wun really noe they really mean it or they are jus poking fun.
but its really quite saddening comeing frm someone that u really treasure.
I really dunno ... how to make u feel not pek chek and the fact that i will make u angry often makes me believe im quite pekchekable..
haiz im oso someone not worth crying over... i'll jus be ignored
how hard reality hits me
i hope i'll be fine....

2009-04-27T20:21:00.001+08:00

.....Seems like im going to spend my life wondering what could have been

2009-04-27T10:30:00.001+08:00

haiz...... it happened anyway....
im so unhappy....
doesnt help when i have so much to study
i nid my frens

=(

2009-04-26T01:56:00.002+08:00

mum called
and my eyes swells again

I hate it.......
thats the worst thing that can happen...you know ur exposing urself to more harm

2009-04-25T13:08:00.002+08:00

that ring doesnt fit you ger.... its the ring that has hurt ur finger the most...
hasnt it been rolling ard in search of someone else to pick it up?
you just want it cuz you think its the prettiest.. isnt it?

i hope u'll still tell me ur problems if u have any.... im a good listener aint i?

the great collaspe

2009-04-25T02:07:00.002+08:00

someday i hope you'll come to realise that i'll always be there for you no matter what.. that you had fun and laughter when we were with each other... the comfort you had when we were sitting together.... that im the one who gives unconditional love truly and sincerely... that i gave u promises even though i know that you cant give me any.....

I hope that day comes as soon as possible...
and when that day comes jus noe that im still here for you... always

I miss you terribly.... come back girl.....

u dumb dumb dee dumb dumb dumb dee dumb dumb

2009-03-27T01:49:00.004+08:00

Cant u feel that we share something special....?
Stupid retard !!!!

Etched in the memories my mind

2008-11-26T11:02:00.000+08:00

Another semester is over in the flash of an eye. Here i am back agan on this near forgotten place to voice my feelings to the voicelesses.
Have you ever felt like taking back words that were spoken? Its a very regretful feeling that some words shouldnt be said and everything might be different or rather same as what it used to be. Many things wouldnt have happened and i wouldnt be caught up in the mess im in now. This then leads to another past wrong decision i have made even further back. Why did i pour in my heart and soul to work so hard for this and yet in the end it brings so much misery. And even worse, now i pulled my fren into this shit together with me. If i didnt i could have just leave everything behind and escape. (altho it isnt a very nice idea). But then again, if i had changed the decision i would never have gotten to know some really nice people. Maybe we would just be strangers walking past each other every other day.
Sometimes its just the different perspective people have. Some people would interpret things differently form how you personally interpret it. This is life.. and often frenliness or kindness is often misunderstood in another manner steered by an underlying motive. This is the harsh reality of today. Wouldnt the world be alot better if everyone were more frank with each other..? There is a decreasing amount of goodness in todays world because evolution has taught humans that niceness is often taken for granted or to a larger extent taken advantaged of. No one ever remembers the little little gestures or acts of kindness people do.
Its ok. now that everything is going to change, i guess we should all move on. Not that i want it this way but it seems its for the best. Thanks for the times when we had fun and also for the times when woes were shared. I love you people.
Maybe i should just LEARN to be contented with what i have and tresure them. Sometimes you'll know that some friends are for keeps.

2008-05-19T00:47:00.000+08:00

what you need is someone who will always be there for u no matter what
I'm very afraid to lose you... you noe that?

tHe eXams are Ovr

2008-05-08T17:11:00.000+08:00

So many things have happened in the past 2 mths....haiz the ups and downs of life
They always say what goes up must come down..
Any way the topic of the day is

Gei Kiang

With the rising intelligence of the species known as humans many people have been caught in the race to be at the top of the social hierarchy and to achieve this, we have witnessed the increasing need for education. However the question is..... As we humans get smarter and smarter with each passing they, is this intelligence put into good use. In our modern cosmopolitan world we an increasing amount of cases of the gei kiang syndrome...

At times the gei kiangness of people have put themselves in undesired situations. The most recent famous incident is the incident where a renowned footballer of one of the best clubs in the world decided to use his head to clear the ball when he had to option to use his foot. Instead of clearing the ball, he headed the ball into his own net causing his team to lose a spot in the champion's league final.

On another occassion, 2 of LFC's best dota players decided put up another one of their classic gei kiang stunts. A and T (not their real names to protect their identity) together with their magnataur and osidian destroyer decided to engage a group of 4 enemy heros with T not having his ultimate resulting the deaths of the team 2 most important players which eventually led to the enemy being able to push down one of our lanes.

This examples has taught us a few lessons on when to be smart and when not to act smart. We shall end the discussion with the famous quote "Kiang jiu ho, Mai Gei Kiang"

2008-03-07T04:21:00.000+08:00

I DAMN PISSED AT THE MOMENT. V V PISSED

2008-03-07T03:50:00.000+08:00

the day we won 6-2 and its been some time since i completed 90mins

2008-03-01T03:44:00.001+08:00

We lost 4-1 to a random team last week and im goin to play with an injured right ankle this week... Sian im goin through a very rough patch recently~ whats worse is its the exams for the next 2 weeks and studying is difficult when ur mind is elsewhr and it doesnt help when I start to doze off whenever i open a book. Im kinda broke recently too i dunno why but the situation is jus lidat.... whr all my $ gone to zzz... Its been 2 days already and i miss you like an astronaunt missing earth... hope everything is fine with you~

2008-02-23T16:31:00.000+08:00

im drowning

2008-02-21T04:30:00.000+08:00

xiao hong and me

Now im so emo~ haiz it was supposed to be a happy day! i should have jus gone to sleep early and i will still be happy.. It was one of the more perfect days i have in a long time. Happily woke up late at 1230pm and went for lunch and lecture and chatting with yonglin on msn thruout lect. Went to queensway with trr tf and yQ to shop for their boots and our new team jersey. Its the long awaited revitalisation of LFC and i am so excited about my new jersey. We got everybody's names and numbers and i bought meatballs also. But life is lidat.... i was cruelly mercilessly heavily brought down to earth by the mahjong people and im at a loss for words. Its 430am and i cant get to sleep. Images flying thru my mind like flipping a foto album... 10am lecture tmr... have u ever felt like u are choking on ur emotions and they are drowning you out not allowing air to reach you droplets swimming around in the eyes that just refuse to flow out......

Mc's and wonDer's bDae luncH

2008-02-21T04:23:00.000+08:00

our buffet lunch for the day

22 and 18

5 and 11

14 and 16

bDae boys 8 and 10 with 11 in the middle

Happy birthday wonder and mC.

We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun

2008-02-18T15:25:00.000+08:00

These are some of the photos taken with the chingay people. Chinese new year and valentines day are all over and i must say that this year's cny is the most boring one in my life. I dint get to see most of my cousins. V-day is a highly commercialised festive season whr love goes flying around and pockets go empty but still i must agree that block C is a v loving place haha. Had a v-day dance performance at PGP and also wrapping flowers late into the night. I hope people who receive gifts from me likes them =). Good news is the revival of LFC is coming soon.

sHearites~

2008-02-01T04:45:00.000+08:00

Its 445am in the morning and yet im not in bed but im here blogging. ha this is because a 4 man team consisting of our greatest nothing-better-to-do wjw trr mc and gk came to sheares at such a unholy timing with the aim of raiding yj's rm at raffles. ha ha Today was a great day ha. Its terr's 22nd bdae which we celebrated at his hse. Me yq and jianguang bought him a orange future shearite adidas jers which i chose while shopping together wif dan dan and mei mei today. Poor sisters are both having cramps today and yet they have to go out on the search for new yr clothes ha. And mei mei dyed her hair and she lloks good wif her new coloured hair. Mayb i shld dye mine too. Shes exceptionally pretty today due to some unknown reasons. Sadly thats only for today ha ha lol.
And yeps its my 3rd week staying in sheares hall. And I must say i really like it here. Especially the people in my block and the supper ha. Altho they aret any chio bu in my block but ha ha i would still prefer blk c over the others ha. But now this has raised many concerns. Before that I wasnt planning to like stay more than a sem. As in I thot that i would jus stay for 1 sem to experience hall life but due to my liking to the people here I would like to stay here for as long as possible. ha moreover trr is coming over nxt sem. But it seems that its an uphill task to accumulate the pts required in a sem's time. But bo bian hafta join a lot of activities to get the pts and that means less studying time and means it will be v difficult to pull up my disgusting cap of 2.9
Haiz hmm mayb for now i'll jus enjoy wadever i can 1st ha. So far i discovered that I can actually make apple crumble ha and I'm surprisingly easy to pond and I cant play mahjong in sheares. The tiles im getting is jus ridiculous.
v-day is coming soon...haiz wad shld i do??

Happy Holidays

2008-01-10T02:06:00.000+08:00

Haiz.... its sad dat the holidays is coming to an end.. Beginning of the holidays i cant wait for school to start becuz i hope to get to see all my frends in school.. But now that its coming to an end i am very very reluctant in fact i dun wan it to end cuz this happens to be one of the best holiday month.. Ha im not saying starting school is bad becuz i am also happy to see my uni frens ha but i am going to miss all the mahjong sessions with team mj the dota all day long... the 5 dagon team and most importantly soccer with lfc! the goals the applause the imbal japan and team sQuare the birthday treats of tf the xmas parties at sw and trr's hse the midnite movies 'im legend' and 'avp2' also national treasure wif eeli and 01 and the late suppers at katong the ice cream dan dan scoops at dempsy BnJ the lunches at singpost with mei mei the new year countdown at cine with geo and von the fruitless journey to adidas warehouse sale. The Og outing and shopping with stella 01 jeanette.. The chalet too was very fun despite the reduced attendance and cost problems that followed. Thanks all of you people who have made this month enjoyable.

We pledged to be the study masters of this sem
whoever tries to distract our study brotherhood
into worldly temptations should be prosecuted.

My modules for the sem
EC2101 Microeconomics 1
EC2102 Macroeconomics 1
EC2303 Foundations of Econometrics
JS1101e Japanese Studies
GEK 2001 Changing Landscapes

Happy New Year 2008 !

2008-01-03T01:43:00.000+08:00

LFC New Year 2008

aVp2 tix 10 of them

THE CAGE

Only the best survive

wads terr doing posing for pic when we were supposed to be warming up

Small room... Notice how high the boxes were

Warehouse... this is only 1/4 of it

Happy New Year ppl...! This new year eve is one of the best i had in the last few years. First off in the morning it was soccer at the usual simei court. Nothing beats having a fun game of soccer filled with laughter and enjoyment. It was already the 3rd or 4th consecutive day we play soccer already. Including at the caGe and also at simei cour. team sQuare comprising of me terr juehai yj and motm shili ha who kept 4 clean sheets and scored a goal being the goalkeeper. and we went on a 4 match unbeaten streak. After soccer in the morn I went to my baby cousin's place in the evening. ha she can walk by herself already! The last time i saw her she still can walk properly and still need ppl to carry her ha. At nite i went to cineleisure to watch geO in a dance competition.. altho they din win but they danced very well i mus say and im sure we all had fun together with von too. Ha they were all jumping around when it struck 12 and they were all celebrating wif the rest of blast. Really happy to be with them at the 1st moment of 2008. =)

They proceeded to newton to have supper while i met up with the rest of LFc for our new year movie ha. They were all waiting for me at rochor tau hua having their supper after their countdown at esplanade. We watched aVp2 2am movie at plaza sing all 10 of us... and to our surprise we met our fellow LFC mate whos finding his leaf ha ha ha... who told us that he is goin out for family outing when we all saw him wif his uni frens haha.. and his shirt reads 'Is your name Summer? Cause i think you are hot!' lol Finally for my new year resolution:

1) get a cap of 3.7 at the end of sem 2

2) tio toto

3) be together with special someone

Today i went back to samsonite warehouse to work... Its stock taking and omG i spent the whole day cursing. First i was asked to count the samples in the cartons in a small room. Pls refer to pictures above. There were many many different bags and i had to open every box and pour out everything to write down the barcode and stuff. And notice how high the boxes pile up to... and i had no ladder so i climbed up to carry dose up and down and some of them were heavy... Ok i thot it will be good to finish early i pia thru every box and after i finsihed with dat i was quite happy until boss says 'Follow me!' and OMFG... he led me to the warehse pls refer to picture above... and he said. 'Count everything....' and i guess u will have an idea of how i feel for the rest of the day.

Left behind

2007-12-30T02:08:00.000+08:00

I'm in a big mess.. 1st its the results. jus thinking of it makes me feel like taking a rifle and start shooting at people... although yesterday was kinda cool wif the cage and Og outing with the rest shopping and buying new shoes.. but everything jus sucks today~... left behind in everything. sometimes people jus make use of you for many purposes and then when u arent needed off u go.. what makes things worst is these people come into the category call friends. Forget abt that the other group of people jus dun feel the care u give.. they find it redundant... And its dangerous when u are alrdy feeling like a dynamite and some close fren u have comes along and jus decide to show u a lil attitude and dere goes.... u have just lit a spark to blow everything up...
makes me wonder again why am i here....

its Xmas

2007-12-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

hmm i mus say its been a rather cool week... spending time with my old frens. Monday was at home till the evening where i had my 2nd treat from tf at crystal jade. Haha thanks for the treat its $ well spent heh. For the next 2 days i did something meaningful ha ha by accompanying poor mei mei for lunch at her workplace singpost or else she had to eat alone so poor thing.. and i also had the chance to indulge in retail therapy and spent like $100 on clothes which i haven done so in a long time... Warlords is a nice movie that i enjoyed with mr low... and our game of monopoly was definitely fun but irritating cuz i was the first to get bankrupt..zz In the midst of all the fun filled activities i still found time to visit dearest dan dan at dempsy ben and jerrys to have ice cream ha ha altho it was a tough and long journey dere cuz the whole of orchard is in a big jam starting from carinhill circle exit at CTE.. but nvm ha since dan dan was feeling bored and the thot of ice cream actually tempted me too..
And then i caught National Treasure with 01 and eeli oso on fri. I had much fun with the 2 of them before proceeding to my mahjong session with the usual other 3 mc terr and jy. But aiya becuz of that har i missed out on sending my xmas cards... reach home at 4am and woke up at 12 on sat and the postmen had all ended work... so sadly some of u ppl will be receiving my cards late... Fun filled soccer today morning with laughter and joy mixed with a cool display of skills and entertainment. Special thx to dan dan for waking me up oso heh and lastly merry xmas to all frens out dere love love.. yays

2007-12-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

its been 1 week since the holidays started and it felt like a year.... boring holiday no travels no meeting ups.. a lil window shopping a few movies and some losing mahjong sessions. money seems to leak out but nv come back... and thoughts are often left unappreciated but yes life goes on.. the world still spins spins spins...

Happy birthday TF~
jiayou twin~
and for ppl who are out travelling... take good care out there
Merry Xmas ppL...

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它

Change is the only constant

2007-12-08T02:31:00.000+08:00

I start to believe that most of the things that are happening are fated, under the influence of someone. Things like how people change how illnesses come about how relationships come about. Now i noe wad khoon wee means by change is the only constant... people change with or without a stimuli.. mite be something that causes change in one person or jus no reason at all.. As such these changes often leaves people wondering... Haiz everything is jus not wad it use to be..

anways.. Happy 21st bdae to NigeL hope u like the preZ we got and u will get ur 5 Cs soon ha ha in the correct context. And oso to kang hong~ hope u have a enjoyable bdae tho we haven met in a long time~ Get well soon mc... we will visit u often~ and oso to uncle dee.. and also most importantly happy birthday ah gong~ we all love u. no kynneth its not u~! ha ha is my grandpa ah gong~ ha

and... as long as i'm here for u people the world is at ur feet..

Afraid

2007-11-27T16:51:00.000+08:00

Suddenly i feel afraid... of everything about life.
am i oversensitive? or i just think too much.
I just dun feel as secure as i was. I guess this is wad an quan gan means.
Maybe you people are moving too fast.
I guess i cant catch up with you people anymore...
Maybe this is the end...

may the sand flow upwards... may time reverse

2007-11-21T04:08:00.000+08:00

hooo 2 days of productive studying while staying in at school.. actually stayin in sch is quite fun ha. had lunch wif dickson sam liying jeanette at arts canteen before prpceeding to study.... wads amazing is the crowd in the canteen doesnt seem lesser than any sch day... and wads worse is the library.... its full frm the 3rd t the 6th flr its FULL! not even a single empty table and the few of us ended up studying at the study bench at engin bridge...ha manage to finish a chapter of psych will wld normally have taken me 2 days... yep and went to lot 1 to have dinner wif dearest dandan and meimei ha sorry for being late la~ ha and wads farni.. long john silver black out andthe cash machones arent working... so they used paper to write down our orders and used calculators...omg...walked ard for awhile b4 goin back sheares... and i had a run ard sch... my god it was a long run and i cant believe its 4km.... it seems much longer than 4km lor.....

day 2 of study wk and i woke up at 11am to go to the lib to study wif 01 and lesbian ha. they got here at 8am to getthe discussion rm man... salutes... and then met mei mei to study wif her at he forum whr dandan and tingwei dey all were doing their project... haha lol dandan scared like shit to do the trustfall lol.....laffs mei mei went off at 6 to watch movie lor wah laooo... study wk lei watch movie.. ad on the way to the bustop she pointed out a tree with a weird looking shape and says it mite break anytime..zz ha ha wun la and it nv break and crush me ok i noe u hoping for it... And i learnt noe to say random rubbish to dandan and tingwei and dats wad happen to qiyuan haha he jus said dathe printing shop ger looks hot ha and we gave her qiyuans no wif his name on it and it wrote...' pls call me... wo deng ni wor' haha...
yep now its slping time and another day of mugging tmr ha
all the best to dandan tingwei qiyuan dawn tmr for their presentation...and teck is comin to sch too tmr and ha looks forward to tmrs lunch*

lets all be happy

2007-11-19T03:13:00.000+08:00

Let us all never forget the simple happiness we all have in us...

The first bite of ice cream....

The burst of rainbow in the sky....

The first kiss we had...

The one hug we miss...

Lets all be happy =)

2007-11-18T10:53:00.000+08:00

Nice pic rite..? ha Felicia was in sch for the yummy canteen food show wif Dasmond Koh and we managed to have a foto taken. omg was she pretty... besides shes super frenly too. loves..

Studied in sch quite a bit during the weekdays and it was quite productive. This week something wrong wif mei mei ha.. somebody very sweet lor thursday got cake gimmie eat lei fri got share mango dessert wif me in lecture wor... haha dun say u fierce liao ok haha. She was really happy when u got an A for her paper too.

Poor von underwent an op for her ear which had an infection cause of some earing.. and was vomitting the entire day for thurs and so dan dan and i decided to visit her yesterday... She was already perfectly ok alrdy when we met her at Hougang mall for lunch at ichiban sushi together with her mum. Now even her mum calls me meepok..*slaps forehead. Von was kinda happy to see us rite haha.. so nice of us to visit. She ate katsu don at $10.90 when it costs $3.50 in sch and dan dan oso another one eat the curry katsu don at $11.90 when its $4.00 in sch.. stoops. We proceeded to von's hse and von very nice oso cut mango for me to eat lor.

Then von and I went to far east to watch a dance compy... She say got cow dere haha... ahzhu was in one of the teams competing and they came in 3rd... I really think they shld have gotten 1st since none of the other teams impressed. Then the 2 of us went to have swensens at PS romantic hor von? I had curry chicken baked rice and she had salmon and we shared a apple crumble for dessert.. waaa the salmon serving was v small.. only 2 pieces. I tink i can like finish everything is 4-5 mouthfuls... Walked around PS after dinner for some digestion before we went home singing along the way together. =)

Haiz the exams are drawing closer and closer and closer. And the textbook seems even more powerful than taking sleeping pills. Hope i can really concentrate for the next week or so and get it over and done with then we shall all enjoy our holiday. Upcoming would be nigel's bdae party on 7th dec and then all the xMas parties and our chalet... cant wait for exams to be over.

huat ah

2007-11-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

2 more weeks to the final exams and its such a untimely period to fall sick but the unfortunately bunch of us happen to do so.... 1st it was mei mei who caught a flu...eee always blow nose loud loud in lecture and lib haha.. then it was dan dan... who had a sorethroat too and me having a combination of both flu and sorethroat and even worse geo had flu sorethroat plus fever omg... hope everyone gets well soon... Being sick sucks especially when its a holiday and u planned to study but ended up sleeping through the day...
ha ha dan dan says she looks like an alien in her formal wear for presentation.... we both started laughing when i saw her at the mrt station from a distance lol... but aiyo dandan.. u still look hot in that clown outfit ok... and wed von and i went on the serach for the legendary mini buns at peoples park only to find it closed for no particular reason and so we went central for the mini donuts which she treat me... the donuts were really small and u can put it straight in ur mouth... dats how small it is.. xiexie twinz.. thurs nite went to 85 wif vix wj and pr for dinner and i jus had the pork porridge and haiz i fell to temptaion and we all ordered the stingray which aggravated my throat. I had no voice when i got back home...
Its cool that my connection is improving and i can play dota once again.. ha ha to dose pubbies to pawned while i was laggy... sorry. ur time is over ha ha... heh ate dinner wif dan dan and mei mei at clementi on fri.. we had claypot rice. Interesting discovery.. dan dan only eats the stem of the vege and meimei eats the leaves ha ha same as me and my sis she eats the stem and i eat the leaves.. eating with them gives me a very family feeling which i haven had in a long long time... dunno why lei ha got that kind of family warmth and i went for the r21 lust caution by tony leung and wang lee hom wif fats wj lm and gy... long time nv have our mini outing liao... goin to have fish and co later... finally my turn to eat something good. goodluck to villa spurs and wadver... HUAT ah

Happy birthday to Von MeiMei EeLi and Me

2007-11-03T01:43:00.000+08:00

ha this pst was supposed to be up sometime ago but i guessed i was too happy to blog anything last week and i thot that i shld wait for everything to be over including all prez received all the aftermath to be over to blog about everything ha. Spent last last weekend mon and tues preparing von's prez too and i mus say im proud of my work ha ha looking at the scrapbook i was kinda reluctant to giv her lor. Ok wed was the celebration day since von was supposed to go out wif her parents on the actual day which was thurs. Oh did i mention both of us have the same bdae?
Wed was also our presentation day for film studies but who cares its celebration day and ran ard sch to let dose who haven left a msg in von's prez to pen some stuffs down. Next we all met at the forum at 6 to prepare to proceed down to Holland V's nydc where dan dan will meet us dere wif the tamagochi. Von went crazy when she saw her prez and of cuz she loved it lots and i got my gigantic forever friends card dat dan dan bought oso. ha lol its now nicely pinned up on in front of my study desk. we all had a great time at nydc everything was cool the people, the food, the cake , the prez ha jus everything. That was definitely the best nite of the year. Thx to all who came to celeb our bdaes. really thx thx thx loves hugs.
And i started to receive all the bdae sms at midnite comin in one by one and its really heartwarming to see all the msges coming in frm different grps of ppl. It ranges from my sec 1-2 class 2j and then ncc buds guides pretties then 3D 4 D peeps, my weekend clicks fats and gang, Jc ppl 03s305 + my bowling dudes, soccer lfc guys, army Provost ppl and oso ha dearest Astral Ahaha... I would like to thank all of u for smsing. In total i received a great 58 bdae sms including belated ones advance ones. I wrote a list of who smsed ok.
Thurs 2510 heh i recieved my presents wif love from dan dan geo teck meimei ahgong leong tingwei Zm ahneh racheal geri ahzhu and special thx to cCc and von for choosing the super nice wallet and tee-shirt.. Next was the weirdest prez i received thruout my 21yrs on earth. Met cher and siewlian at the deck and guessed wad they gave me ha. A bag of beansprouts... -.- and their rationale being they used to call me beansprouts back in our sec sch days... ha ha it ended up being cooked and thats the most delicious tao gey ive eaten... and then big hugs to eeLi and 01 for the liverpool look alike bdae card. hA its the one shown on my display pic. Its a v cute card and poor eeli got sick doing it... Went shopping wif geo and von at novena velocity for dan dan's surprise prez as well as for von to spend her espirit vouchers. Von bought a bag which suits her v well and oso a dress. OMg Von u noe....dress ha ha its the first time im seeing her in a dress ha and she looks quite nice in it ha ha =p Geo bought a G dogtag and she got a nike cap from me which i tink was v v nice. Then von proceeded to have crabs wif her family which i drove geo to ur cuzzie's place b4 goin home to cook my beansprouts.
Fri its dan dan's turn to go crazy over her surprise tamagochi ha ha and dan and von begin hugging each other on the corridor.. ha so nice of her to get us bubble tea. After sch went to town to look for the mafan mei mei's prez lor.. mus practical one cannot no use one if she dun like mus go exchange lor ha ha and she wans burberry and gucci wallet and a pair of birks. Finally after a long nite of choosing i decide on a wallet for her in the end ha with special help from joce of cuz. Thx joce i would still be chooing when they are closing if it wasnt for her.
Last nite 6 of us went to casurina to eat crabs~!!! ha and it was geo's idea to have crabs dere cause they are famous for it and it was to compensate my crab dinner on my bdae dat i din have.. very sweet rite ha. We all met in sch and went dere in my cosy car to have a nice crab meal and swensen's ice cream and we had lotsa fun eating and making lotsa noise in the car. and ahgong lives in a cave ha cuz i lost my way around jurong everywhr is jurong west ave 2 ha. Really happy that we can go out have meals and spend time together. And lastly....THANK you to Astral and Ahaha who got me a manutd jers and a nice bdae card to come together wif it =) thx to dickson jeanette and weiliang to go all the way to town to get it.... and all dose who wrote in the card too... love loves. And oso thx in advance to tF and Mc who are goin to get my prez tmr. On the whole i really really enjoyed my bdae thanks to everyone who contributed to my happiness =)

2007-10-22T02:20:00.000+08:00

Altho i didnt go for some buffet, i kinda enjoyed my weekend especially fri.. where i met up with my AH ncc guys and guides to treat them to my advance birthday dinner. We had dinner at some steakhouse at cineleisure which tingfeng recommended. *ahem coughs* And everyone had fun chatting and catching up. Its always nice to be able to be brought back to the times we had in secondary school when we were deemed 'weird ncc guys' by the guides. Of all the presents, I love the card the most haha cuz you people wrote something which you all wun actually say out to me mah so its kinda nice reading some of the msgs u ppl wrote except weiF.. wtf wads 'dear alvin, square square circle circle diamond diamond cross cross????' And it was nice of the guides to treat me to swensens where we had Earthquake heh. And we had fun asking weird questions and the slivermonk story altho it was kinda irritating ha. But on a whole i really enjoyed myself. Thank you those we came and those who wanted to but cant make it... people like cher siewlian tatchin wenxiang.. ha take care and study hard...

2007-10-18T02:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really wish i can invent something useful. Actually lotsa things. I would v much want a pill that can erase a bulk of ur memories and you are given the chance to restart everything. Its like u and playing CS and u type in -retry. I would also like a pill that can when eaten equals 10 hours of sleep. Dat way i can use the time meant for sleeping to finish the neverending load of work every university student has on his/her hands and still have the wonderpill available for use.
i wanna write a nice story for next week
i wanna see people be happy
and sometimes i want to live somewhere else too...

Heres a lil question that im curious to know...

Imagine you are in this situation. you are hanging on a cliff with your right hand. Your left hand is holding onto your best fren below you and your balls starts itching badly and you see a big sized spider crawling into your pants... what would you do?
1) let go ur fren and scratch your balls
2) get your fren to stretch his other hand into ur pants to get the spider out
3) use the heel of ur feet to kick ur balls hard in the hope of killing the spider in the course of doing so
4) none of the above and hope for the best

Crossroads

2007-10-18T02:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in life you reach a point when you are at crossroads and you hafta make a decision which direction to take. The road leading ahead is dark and gloomy and its an uncertainty whats lies ahead. Some people says that it leads to a heavenly garden where everything is sweet and nice and u get to enjoy the nice scenery and the rainbow that appears at this so called garden. However theres also a chance it might lead you to somewhere shitty mayb a rubbish collection point or some worst place on Earth. Or alternatively you can always take a turn into another road which doesnt lead you anywhr exciting its jus a normal road where u experience calm normal weather and it jus keeps goin on leading to no where. Everything is dull and routine but peaceful..which road would you take..? Considering you have been on the road headed all along hoping to find the heavenly garden you have always dreamt of. Would you change ur directions at this point of time?

2007-09-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

Its the started of the recess week.... recess week was supposedly for us students to have a rest but instead i dont feel the relaxation at all. Why is that so? Its seems that its only a one week break which is equivalent to 7 days plus the wkend and that will be 9 days. But considering that i have 1 psych mid erm test which consists of 100 mcqs with negative marking, 1 econs midterm test. 1 psych mid term report due once sch starts which i have absolutely no idea how to write, 2 social work reports on social visits, 1 eng lang project which is only halfway thru and 1 film studies project which we haven even started, 9 days doesnt seem enough for all these mind torturing stuff. And i thot it was bad... today charmaine jus told me other than wad i have which includes econs psy and sw, she still has midterms for south asian studies and genes and society.... omg means 4 mid term tests.... I dont tink its possible to finish studying dat...
Haiz and recess week is boring too boring......i wish im in sch.. cuz...cuz ..cuz i miss everyone in sch....... lectures wif dickson jeanette sam stella... sw lectures wif everyone and canteen teh~ (someone dunwan to drink lor), engin lunches wif danDan twinnie teck leong zhu ahgong and geO, meeting old frens like chers asswais joces eleens at the deck, mugging sessions in the lib wif muggers club, 3+1 at chinese lib studying and jus gossips during break times ha 2 hr discussion on the forbidden topic wif leong teck and tingwei, and oso lvl 3 lib beside dustbin studies and icecream yogurt wif missing fruits~ everybit of sch except work. I wan my sch life back~!!!!

2007-09-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

I am gradually becoming a -> mugger. -.- can u believe it i studied for a grand total of 7 hrs on monday. 4hrs of lecture in the morn 1 hr of lunch and im back in books at the library. But its a enjoyable one becuz other than being able to complete studying for eL test i had m&ms and polo sweets to accompany me and some people who likes sitting beside dustbins. left at 7 and rush home to rush out to kk's hse to mug. I seriously dunno why hes kinda a close fren to me when hes uber irritating. He likes to off toilet lites when u are peeing and does many other similar stuff. Yep and i finally got my eL project started.
Tues started off in horror. When i reached sch it was eL mid term test. Ok it was a open book test. When i sat down i saw sam and ellen studying the textbook and i said' aiyo so hardworking still studying' then sam said' u oso study la' and i went okok and when i opened my bag... my jaws dropped wide opened. The image of the txtbook on my bed cycled past my mind..... and i was too lost for any words, voice, sounds to come out of my mouth. But ok ha... considering the high intellect and cleverness ur fren here has i was able to do the test without the book. Had lunch at canteen wif geO twin dandan and our dearest ahgong ha who is find ppl to share his darkest secrets. And evil twin kept complaining i fpq abt m&ms har.... xiao qi gui. We watched 12stories and it was a total waste of time. If u havent seen the full power of nagging and wad it can cause u shld watch that show.
After ssa2218 tut on weD which was yesterday. I was kinda stressed but ha i jus dint wan to be so mayb i dint show signs of it. Cuz i dun really like to tink of so many things when watching a film. film watching is supposed to be relaxing and i feel like i totally neglect this mod. Has nth to read up on, haven start the project, and totally not listening during lect. Haiz and ppl pls dun fall sick okok... drink more ma ti shui~
Today is imbal day ha. Finally dere was a moment dat i really really wish i could stop time and let that moment linger ard longer. It was super tasty ha nv had such nice ice cream before. Haha especially dat particular spoonful. it was like i have tasted icecream yogurt from heaven. Hope i can go thru the entire 5 secs over and over again in my dreams tonite. =) ok tmr is gonna be a busy and tiring day so. yep hang on~! recess week is coming.

2007-09-18T01:33:00.000+08:00

weee a happy week came to an end and its the starting of a new week altho its supposed to be stressful. Last week went to temporary chinatown complex market to eat arboleng but its closed so twin and me settled for some lousy stall and it totally sucks ha will be back for the zhen zhong haisheng arboleng. and geyao aiyo ha ha i mite be singing lor =( and im prone to stage fright wldnt wanna tremble thru the entire song ha ha. And i find the song quite difficult ha. Its ai ai ai by fang da tong and the key is kinda high. Thurs was the coolest day of the week ha i made the right decision to go sch and mug. And i crashed psych stats1 lecture ha. =) the lect was boring ha but i wasnt bored =p yeps caught in a jam on the way home and blur me jus drive blindly and i ended up on CTE to sLe home its 1 big freakin round home. And fri ppl pang seh me for dinner lor ha ha u noe who u ppl are but nvm ha i had imbal hot devil chickens at kovan ha the imbal chickens are back once again. Sat went to ktv and supper at geylang ha. Long time we all had nice supper together. Somebody jealous i having good food and went to eat prata for supper oso haha. And back in action for sunday morning soccer too altho it was drizzling but it was still good soccer. Sadly fell and injured my hand. Seems like everyone fell at least once but i tink only i got injured ha. Suay lor. Nvm i had a happy week. so its ok ha. Hope this week will be good too. eL test tmr~. Im pwned.

89757~

2007-09-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

Its been a happening weekend for me~. Started off with a tiring friday. Had to be in sch for some stupid Research Programme which only require me to do 12 strongly disagree agree qns.. zZ. I tink i can finish dat in 1 min? and i had to reach sch at 10am zZ. Then comes the 5hrs wifout brk shit. Eng lang tutorial followed by social work lecture and psych tutorial after. And i fell aslp during psy tut..haiz. After which i had to rush home to get all changed up and get ready to party ha. Its ZouK nite. met tf yj and mc for dinner at mos burger taka b4 proceding to meet jy for the bus to zouk ntu hall 8 bash. That was the first time i ever reach zouk so early ha like 930pm. then along came yonglin yiqin trr and oso micH. and omG mich was a hell of a clubbeR man...~ super havOc la. Less clubbing alrdy micH~! more mugging. It was fun nite~! altho i guess clubbing culture doesnt really suit me... reach home at 5am..-.- concussed shortly after..

Woked up at 1130.. dats like only 6 hrs of slp and went to stelLa's flea mrkt stall to visit and bought some sorta necklace for 01's bdae at a discounted price courtesy of stelliaaaa ha. lingered ard b4 meeting twin and chingcheng to go watch suntec dance. And oh my the grp dancers were all great. And the moonwalk umbrella is freakin nice. Somehow he really looks like hes flying away. Proceeded to holland V to have cold rock ice cream wif eeli and 01 heh. My choice of icecream mix is v nice. Dint have enuff. White choc and strawberry icecream wif raspsberry mix in. Then went home to get the caR and drove to viX's to play lifeboat wif the rest. haha had a gd laff at our mr no brain stuntman lim. its 3am when i got home...

Its sunday morn and i woke up late for 01's bdae celeb. The grp met at upper thomson famous prata stall. which eeli says is famous for banana prata. Mayb im fated wif the banana prata. I ordered mushroom prata and when i started inside dere banana inside. So i asked the indian guy dere. And hes so naive trying smoke me wif some idiot ans hahaha farni tho. I asked ' wah now mushroom prata got put banana ar' Then he said erm..... dats our new prata. After a few mins he came back and said he got me the wrong prata. zzzZ ha. HAppy BdaE 01! Yep happy weekend comes to an end and its back to schwrk again...=( nvm i'll jus keep going!! its gonna be a happy week cuz... ha guess whos back!! Home swt home for cute white doggie and its owner =p

some complaints and rants

2007-09-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i think if people my age share the same problems dat i do... Ok first most people at some point of their student life will most likely experience this particular problem and im not goin to say wad problem is it. Hmm if u noe whos ahgong in sch and u will most likely noe wad problem it is. Jus dat hes has a seriously abnormal way of handling it. Clue: it has something to do with people of the opp sex.
Ok nxt problem is dat i really loathe people who has nothing better to do and then goes ard spreading rumors abt this particular guy and ger being together or have something fishy goin on jus becuz dey were seen together often, or abt some interpersonal relationship matters when they have no idea of wad exactly happened. I mean come'on cant male and females be good frens or do they really have to be couples, lovers wadever u call em. These people don't actually noe how much damage these rumors can cause. It mite jus be some fun gossip to you but it can totally wreck the frenship btw the victims and whoever involved. So tink twice the nxt time u decide to spread some idiotic senseless ridiculous comments abt others and perhaps let some blood flow to every nook and crevice of ur pathetic pink shit u have inside ur skull and u mite actually discver wad consequences ur random words of boredom mite bring.
Studies has always been another headache for me. Now I have a bad prediction of wad my grades are like for certain modules. I would tink dat at the current rate im goin C+ would be a somewhat good to have reflection of my eL mod alrdy and i cant really afford a C+ considering i mite get 1 too for film studies. And since the only mod that i THINK im coping well is econs, and often things doesnt always turns out according to what you tink, I am seriously questioning myself whether i really want to major in psychology taking into consideration dat everytime i open the psych txtbk i couldnt get past 10 pages without falling aslp. (the txtbk has approx 800 pages).
Yupz finally got my new specs maDe and its white. I noe everybody seems to be wearing specs with white frames nowadays. Its not dat i wan to look the same as everybody else its jus dat i got professional advice frm my fresh, unique pretty and wadeva eva adjectives she uses to describe herself, twin. And shes says that white looks nice. So yup plus it goes well wif my watch which happens to be the same colour. Its gonna be 01's bdae on sunday and it happens to be my dad's bdae as well. So 01 happen to be free after wrk on saturday and we gonna plan some stuff for her. So... the surprise awaits... And lastly hope everything is goin on fine for the person in cheena lanD whr ppl wif one of the most irritating accents in the globe. wads farni is this person can automatically adjust her accent to fit her surrounding ppl altho she sounds weird wif it. Come back soon~!

scH days

2007-08-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

After like erm mayb 2 mths? yah im here to update this existing thing called blog. Since arts camp everything is kinda not exciting mayb cuz arts camp has been too much fun that other stuffs doesnt seem as fun relative to arts camp. I had dance lessons at studio wu~ has been quite an experience and oso fun times wif some not so fun times oso. And yup i finally learnt how to make a proper cheesecake ha thx to nigeL and i was told it was really nice ha cuz i only had a mouthful of it. And yup Oweek has givin me the chance to know more frens which im v glad to noe.. deres ee li tan (eggy) ling yi(01) jeanette hmm teck and shunting, fellow research program partner ha. Thanks to them i have more lecture company as well as mahjong kahkis.

Yep and with regards to studies... bidding went well and since it went so well i decided to waste a pt and dropped philo to take eL. So for dose who don't noe... these are my mods Psychology(PL1101E) which im intending to major in..as for now. Economics(1101E) which im intending to minor in. English Language(EL1101E) Social Work(SW1101E) and Singapore studies: film studies(ssa2218) yup and tutorial balloting is quite ok oso except that i gotta do my pL econs and sw tutorials alone cuz cant get the same slot as the rest of em =( And omg i tink uni is more tedious than A levels. Everything is goin at a v fast pace and u hafta do everything urself its not like u have a tutor for every subject dat knows u and is always dere to offer help. In uni u are on your own so i guess i hafta put in more effort in studies alrdy.

And yup closer frens would noe dat im havin kinda a problem recently so im not really in the best of moods so ha if i ever look sian or anything when im out wif u guys ha im v sry. Hope everything will turn out better. And yupz lotsa bdae ppl out dere this mth. I'll like to wish all my close frens good frens best fren happy birthday. Happy 21st to Qj siewLian Lm wJ Ryue melvin Irvin and oso Fatty!! And congratz to u being together wif tpY. all the best. And people who are flying this week erm pls take care lots...

2007-07-22T11:58:00.000+08:00

haha after much complaints about me not updating..here i am to continus wif day 3

Day 3
started with me not being able to wake up. One of the rare ocassions when im not able to. First nigeL came in my rm to wake me up and i tink im sub-conscious and said ok.. haha the nxt thing i noe is vOn pulling me out frm beD and everyone was like ready outside their rooms waiting alrdy and i had to wash up and wear contacts pack and everything omg. Day 3 was sentosa day~! Started off to viVo to have some games first and i went to samsonite to look for sheng ha. And then we took the monorail train to sentosa. Stupid me act clever... wen to say why are we doing all the same cheers and ended up doing a ai bu wan dance and shiT ended up i had to do the thing over and over again so paiseh.... The games are all very normal nothing exciting.. no beach soccer no beach volleyball -.- And we had a beach paegant and sad to say disappointing haha..oops. And we had tug of waR which resulted in backaches of fellow grp members like nigel dickson ha. Next we had sp nite....zz its the worst programme in the whole of arts camp... ha. And somebody's missing for the whole of day 3 lor.... ha highlight of the day was the polar bear game during supper heh.. too baD my perfect plan din work out... shit~!

2007-07-03T02:35:00.000+08:00

my new hairstyle..

2007-07-03T01:54:00.000+08:00

wah tired day..... my eyes were half closed alrdy while i was at the shunji jus now.... Fell aslp while having a haircut... Suddenly do so much strenous excercise... Went to lay badminton wif fats sheng and tpy only 4 of us so dere were no breaks jus keep playing and pro me haha won every game no matter who i team wif. oh ya and b4 dat we went to safra bowling to slack dere and watch the people dere bowl. They mus be rich spending money to throw balls wif absolutly no aiming and u can see every ball moving towards the sides.. Looking at the lanes makes me think back to the times of A div whr i din let anyone down when everyone finished their games and i was the last to throw the last frame and everyone was looking at me and my legs were shaky ha luckily i managed to pull off a turkey lor =p one of the proudest moments.

Fass Forward DAY 2
day 2 started off with a 1-2 hr spell in LT11 and poor georgina hav no voice alrdy lucky u had the strepsils rite... thx to hotie ha. we were all listening to a talk by some professor and IT security stuff. The only thing that interests me is the dota compy with top prize of $1200 and i was asleep the rest of the time. Next we are off to SRC for some pool games... I din swim much cuz i was wearing contact lenses and so i played in the waddling pool and won most of the rounds i played in. And the rest were unimpt stuff. NExt was prOject shoot it! We went to many many places to take fotos and complete some tasks. One of em was at ikea i ran like it was some 2.4 run to get all the fotos of the items required and ran all the way up the overhead bridge to anchorpt to complete the task zZ. And we had mass dance back in sch haha Xiaozhu dance was really really really nice. xiaozhu u sexy u look like woOo~! ha im a nooB kept having my directions wrong. And nxt up sPeed dating again.. -.- zZz and day2 was worst then day1. the guys had to form a circle inside a outer circle of gers and we had to talk to em for ard 5-10 mins b4 we move to the nxt ger... Its like so lame everyone is repeating the same qns and stuff and had to speak quite loudly despite a bad thoart.. so after talking to about 7-8 ppl i went to the toilet to hide for like 20++mins and when i came out they were still talking omg. So i speed dated my 2 oGls haha Georgina and Angela and we ended up telling each other lame jokes. Altho it was lame jokes but its definitely more fun than talking to another 7-8 ppl about something u repeated 7-8 times alrdy. And last event of the day was niGht venture.... This is scary.. lol i was a lil scared la but had to act not scared ha...
cont day 3 tmr.

2007-07-02T02:56:00.000+08:00

dats our mascot wif xiaozhu, our oGl

FASS FORWARD

2007-07-02T02:32:00.000+08:00

Im back from arts camp~! and yep i was a blast. It turned out alot better than i expected ha. And to think the nite b4 arts camp i was like regretting why i signed up for the camp.. thinking of all the cheering stuff and having to socialise.. But half a day into arts camp and im feeling comfortable wif everyone alrdy! I mus be a nice person dats why ha.

DAY 1

ha day 1 started v wrongly. I met tC and zheng quan at clementi mrt to go together and and we kinda late alrdy in the first place and decided to take a cab in but we waited and waited and we waited. wait here wait dere wait everywhr and still no cab until we took the bus in the end. And we were ard an hour late and tC says that this kinda camp the late comer sure kena forfeit or sth one ha but we were safe nothing happened to us. I was then brought to my oG group : AsTraL ha i dunno why but i jus keep thinking that this name is damn cool. okk and everyone in the oG had to introduce themselves and the place was so noisy that after everyone said their names I had no idea wad their names are. And we played lotsa icebreakers kinda game and we started cheering all the house cheers alrdy. Nxt was station games all ard sch and the first station i had to get wet alrdy. The guys are supposed to soak our t-shirts in water and squeeze the water outta our t-shirts frm the 2nd lvl so that the gers below can collect the water.. zZ and i was wearing shoes la and it became wet.... lotsa other disgusting games which im lazy to say everything but there is one game thats #$%$#@@!!@# there was jam lettuce and tomato and 2 slices of bread and we were supposed to pass all the stuff w/o using our hands through all the 13 ppl and the last guy would make a sandwich and everyone had to eat it.. zZ

Next we did our mascot and its a cool one. its a purple board with the words astraL in green and a hairy head attached to it ha Nxt we had dinner and did i mentioned everything else is nice except speeD dating and the fooD. I broke my spoon while trying to cut the tou kua lor zz. And the oG chatted for quite sometime b4 moving out to west coast for more station games dere and dats where i got my nickname for the rest of the entire camp. They call me Hot..! SizzlinG Hot! ha. Its becuz i said something wrong la ha sry la har haha u all v hot v hot. *cross fingers

And yea v v happy i finally found someone with the same birthday as me! Introducing Yvonne! a.k.a ah boh. Shes my of my ogL councilors and they are a really fun bunch. Shall introduce the rest slowly. ha wah eh same birthday lei~! ha mayb im over ecited la but ha 21 yrs liao first time found someone wif the same birthday mah. Honoured anot? same birthday as me. *sticks out lil finger loL

Okiez shall continue wif day 2 tmr. slpZ

2007-06-11T02:00:00.000+08:00

Read about a difficult issue on someone elses blog.
"do you tink that love is a choice or a feeling?"

I would say that love is not about choices. Its a feeling in you dat jus comes without a reason. A feeling you cant explain. A feeling that jus makes ur heart beat faster and the world revolve slower. That particular someone jus keeps appearing on ur mind all day all nite. If you ever loved a person till the pt where you still love him/her even tho u tell yourself not to have any feelings for that particular person then you will understand.
But upon further thot... the choice part comes in. Its true that its more of a decision than choice since humans don't normally choose the worst path for themselves, they would usually decide to go through their lives with someone they at least liked. Marriage is for a lifetime. Its not something like i marry you for the fun of it. It involves alot of responsibilities and people. Its never jus about 2 people, it involves the world. And wad happens after the honeymoon period is over, thats where the decision sticks.

Mayb i should also observe how interpersonal relationship works.
Its kinda interesting to find out what made people do certain things, why certain people say something, what are the underlying implications and how people react to it. Its fascinating altho I maybe assuming most of the time.

2007-06-11T01:52:00.000+08:00

Some of the pics at mc's hse the nite of the steamboat drunkards

they look gay dun they?

gk crawled over to hug yj

we placed the bottles

is he dead?

2007-06-11T01:28:00.000+08:00

Time pass so fast dat it really flies... its already the 2nd week of june amd half a yr is goin to be gone. In 1mths time im gonna start school really soon. Feeling kinda irritated that I din really accomplished much in this half a year. Always say that I wanted to learn something be it piano guitar singing or dancing but in the end its jus talk i no actions taken. Next.... worked but dint really saved much in fact this in half a year my savings din even reach the $500 mark. 3rdly, I never really excercised except for the weekly sunday morning 2hr soccer that made me run abit. And we din even joined any Dota compies even after FaTs got his new com not to mention win some decent matches. This feeling of having wasted 6 mths jus suck alot.

Jus got my class 3 licsense abt a week and hav been driving out for the past few days mostly to katong for teo heng dota and oso steamboat at mc's hse. Met the soccer guys for dinner on friday after work. Although its fun to go out in a big group but its always v difficult to make decisions and stuff. you noe wad i mean if u go out wif like 7 or 8 ppl often. 8 of us dat nite.. first it started wif dinner at spagettidiez (did i spell it right?) at paragon. And being a friday nite and its like the Gss period we had to wait quite some time for a table for 8. After an expensive meal we have problems wif the bill as someone din pay the amt he was supposed to. And next we din noe wad to do after dinner. There were a few choices namely watch a movie? either shrek or ocean's or we could go play LaN or we could go sing at teoheng. Then tf doesnt wanna watch a movie when the rest were ok wif it and terr hav ardy seen shrek. And a few others dun wanna sing and we ended up wif the lamest plan and dat is to dota at GG when we cna actually all play at home.

sTeamboat at mc's house was really cooL. dere were also 8 of us and we all bought lotsa food to mc hse to have steamboat. The main course was balls -.- ha as sw bought $15 worth of meat ballsand we all ate to our fullest wif some stupid incidents in the course of our dinner. eg. we waited ard 20mins for the food and the soup to boil and realised dat yunjun din on the fire after 30 mins he did the same stunt this time he din on the switch. And after dinner they all played some games wif drinking up the vodka raspberries and red wine that andy brought as punishment. sw and I were not involved as we were driving. They had lotsa fun and yj and gk got drunk ha and they were all over the floor and they puked all over the place b4 we left. poor mc. But it was a fun bonding session we had.

2007-05-31T01:47:00.000+08:00

ha its been sometime since i updated.. mayb cuz im kinda happy today thats why im in the mood to blog. Ha cuz i finally get to deliver my sWiss chocs to moJo Jojo after eons. Hope she doesnt get a bad thoart aft she gobbles down all dat. And happen to discover a adidas street soccer challenge outside ngee ann city. Its kinda cool and some very pro kids dere oso. Too bad we are all overaged cuz theres only the under-19 and under-16 category.

Tho Liverpool lost the champs league.. i have to say that its already quite an achievement to be in the finals beating some football giants like Barcelona and Chelsea in the road to the finals. Too bad they lost to a disgusting goal by the player that was born offside. Now jus hope to see some new faces in the squad.. Better players pls... and ppl like Zenden Gonzalez ha find a new home. If i were Benitez my wishlist would include:
1. Eto ( this is top priority cuz none of the lfc strikers can really score)
2. Simao ( Better quality wingers. Zenden u better wake up ur idea when u get to ur new home)
3. Alves (more Wingers)

2007-05-03T01:59:00.000+08:00

Im back... from my lil trip to the beautiful island near redang.. shall share more of it when i got the fotos... they are currently still wif xie lao shi...
Not in the best of moods recently.. mainly becuz... I dunno ha mayb its juz me.. but the feeling is different. not like before..hmm we talk less and erm.. I dunno how to put it in words.. Kinda regretted goin for the trip.. not becuz it wasnt nice but becuz everythings kinda different aft the trip.. mayb its because ur hav some problems and unhappiness dats why its lidat. Hmm juz noe dat mayb im unable to help with anything but.. I can listen quietly beside you.. to let you feel dat ur not alone... yup
I have another problem...haiz.. im full of problems.... Dunno wanna stay hostel anot now.. ok its absolutely ridiculous dat Nus doesnt allow us to choose our roomates.. its random pick.. ok so how do you wan me to stay wif someone i don't know? not to even mention sleep in the same room..zZ so if i still want I might have to consider staying in a single room which means higher costs.. ard $1700 i tink for 1 sem. And its kinda sad not being able to stay wif my frens as i was v excited about it and looking forward to it but reality is juz lidat.... UNLESS~! im able to find someone i noe who handles these stuff like mayb a council member or something so that i can pull strings and make em pair me up wif someone of my preference. And my dad juz told me telepark <-his office building has been bought over by DBS i tink? so its not under singtel anymore and so they no longer have free parking and daddy has to pay $10 a day for parking which makes no sense since he can juz take the mrt as its only 1 stop to work which costs about $1+? which means the caR is mine to drive! dat is provided i pass my tp on my first attempt next mth... which i have absolutely no confidence of.. 2ndly i dun like the car...im choosy i noe... but to guys u noe... cars and stuff yah.. and somemore dad's car manual.. its troublesome and its chervolet.. zz always comes up wif problems. But since i cant afford one myself i have no choice.. So back to the hostel problem... if i can use the car.. would i still stay hostel? mayb juz for a sem to experience hostel life... see how things goes.. on the lookout for the someone who can pull strings ha.. anybody noes anybody who can do that? Liverpool is in the Champions league FINAL~! and guess wad mourinho said.... ha as usual ' the better team lost' haha poor chelsea after investing so millions on how many star players and they still cant get into a champ league final yet while its liverpool's 2nd final in 3 years. And its manutd vs acmilan tonite hope manutd gets through becuz im beginning to like their football ha

Girls are not good things
and dats because basically Guys are notvery good things either...

2007-04-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

My last week working at cpF alrdy... was pretty happy about it, but as the date draws nearer there are things dat made me reluctant to leave.. but also not enough to hold me dere and listen to all the auntie uncle calling with regards to the workfare bonus ha. yesterday was my last day seeing sandy alrdy cuz wed and thurs she will be on leave and so ruping and I shared to buy her a gift.. Its a muG wif a smiley face according to ruping cuz shes the one dat chose it as i hav to go for driving yesterday. Sandy dotes on me alot ha... altho she always ask me to do shredding.. passing papers around.. tell ppl their lunch time and sending letters but dats to let me hav a break from all the calls im getting. and jennifer always say sandy is my gan jiejie ha. And then deres jennifer oso ha who always talks to me altho she always ask abt other ppl ha. Then dere are memories of the previous batch of ppl... i can also visualise they are all around when i look at the empty seats.. like zhanhui slping bay and edwin looking at jokes webby and yangwei doing sudoku.. and kenneth and char and meiyun and erm.. =) but i hafta leave anyway sooner or later.
Went to Nus wif weiF today for medical.. and he din bring his form M or ratehr he din receive it and we were laffing all the way on the train journey thinking of ways how to counter them if they say he cant have his medical checkup done if he doesnt hav his form M. we thot of like acting pissed and scare the staff overdere and he have a v lame look on his face when he tried to say " wtf do you mean i cant do medical w/o form M!!!' loL ok next thing... we dunno where to alight in nus. but i alighted at the right place but we walked in the wrong direction... -.- the place was jus opposite the busstop but instead we cut thru all the buildings bhind the busstop cuz dere was a address at the btm of the paper saying it was blk e3a. and we walked thru the entire raffles hall and got lost jus like dunno who the other time during open hse. After some time finally found blk e3a but to our horror it turned out to be the office of admissions not the the health center zz and we looked at the map dere and realise the health center is jus opposite the busstop we alighted..Zz and thru out the walk to e3a i was telling weif 'xiang xing wo... wo shi orienteering pro..lol'
Halfway thru the medical checkup i spotted meixing...a sick meixing in fact... I came out frm the doc's rm and walked towards the place whr i and weif were sitting but hes gone and i noticed the que no. board and saw his no. on rm B which was the other end of the rm and so i walked back and i thot i saw a familiar jacket... isnt dat the jacket i bought for mX? then i turned and saw her sitting dere wif a sick look ha.... mX ar... u always so hardworking study until so so so late... dun get sick oso difficult lor... she was dere to see the sch doC. poor thing tmr still got paper... sick le how to study... so she waited for us to finish our X-ray then we took a cab and send her home... thruout the entire journey she cant really talk cuz she feels like vomitting... v ke lian... wonder if shes ok le...take care wor.
tonite Manutd vs acMilan champ league semi final...~! hope it will be a man utd vs liverpool final. and then i dun mind whoever wins it be it manutd or liverpool la...but hopefully liverpool ha. and yup i will be in paradise for the coming weekend. On a holiday to some beach resort in some island in malaysia. this is the island. http://www.pulauperhentian.com.my/getperhentian_bus.php
hope it'll be fun altho not so many ppl goin this time only 5 of us. im leaving on friday to be beach boi le be bac on tues =)

2007-04-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really wonder wad am i doing... finding trouble for myself..
in the end making myself feel so terrible... silly aint I?
getting sick again...keep getting sick these days.... and more retarded oso
wonder if its really the job... seems like wad they say is real
answering calls from no brainers really lowers ur iQ by a lot..
Hope school starts soon~

2007-04-11T13:05:00.000+08:00

work work.....but finally i have given my last day alrdy.. My last day will be on April 28th. Feels like finally goin to be free from all the irritating people calling to ask abt money problems... Seriously i dislike people who see money as their life... Everything they want to noe about argue about and falling out is money... I've seen families broken up because of money and i swear u wun wan to be in one... ok but i feel bad leaving the job cuz all along sandy thot i would be working till june or something like that... plus im doing lotsa stuff like voice mail sending letters and everything so yah i feel bad leaving so early.. plus i wun noe wad i'll be doing after this job cuz i haven started looking for a new job yet... ha
went to vivo yesterday aft wrk to meet shenghua and i bought meiyi a pair of haviannas for her 21st birthday at vivo... haha but i dunno wads her shoe size and i asked the sales assistant over dere he said dat most females wear size 4-5... so i was tinking meiyi being quite short shld be wearin size 4... and so i got a size 4... but b4 dat i happen to ask for somebody's opinion and somebody replied me aft i paid and she says most females wear size 7-8.. omg like such a big difference.. do girls feet have such a big range in size?? like so ma fan ha guys only range between 9-10 i tink ha. and went back to tampines to buy present for tpy oso cuz its oso her bdae.. altho we are not on gd terms alrdy but haha vix thot that we shld get her one too.. and since meiyi is not ard sheng and i went over to her hse to pass the haviannas to meiyun, meiyi's younger sis ha.
Manutd rox.. luckily i woke up to watch the match... The scoreline reads 7-1 at full time... it was already 4-0 at halftime alrdy.. watching ronaldo play u cant help but tink hes not human... firstly he runs wif the ball at an amazing speed.. 2ndly yesterday he jus stood ont he spots and move his feet at amazing speed like left right left right and by doing that he faked 2 defenders and got a shot...im like omg... how did he do that...
zZz its only 140pm now and im still in office.. somemore tonite mus go driving lessons...zZ totally sick of driving lessons... wonder wad are u doing...

2007-04-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

haiz have been quite upset for the past few days for a number of reasons...namely man utd lost... van der sar and ferdinand are v comical.. quite a pity they are not part time clowns.. and then dere is a record breaking 117 calls for me today... dats like i dun even have time to get a sip of water frm the bottle and the phone rings again... and thirdly... haiz jus tinking about it makes me depressed.. nvm dat.. I dunno why haha... sounds strange..but i feel stupid and dumb. Quite rarely do i feel stupid.. but i really do now.. and the thing is i dunno wad made me have this kinda feeling.. watever im saying i realise slowly soesnt make any sense.
I noe i've been saying this for quite sometime since the last taiwan trip but i really feel like goin for a walk in some other country... to mia for awhile...mayb i'll feel better or sth. its meiyi's birthday tmr... dunno wad to get her.. and its nat's bdae this saturday and its kim's next week... so many birthdays.. ha and for christ sake..arsenal pls buck up and play better football. i really pity you when i compare you to the season when u were unbeaten and now ur playing like a relegation team...
ur like a cloud u noe dat...

2007-04-08T01:44:00.000+08:00

Friday was good friday so yep din hafta work.. but good friday became fitness day.. as i had quite a number of activities... Early in the morn went to simei to play soccer wif tf and gang.. haiz getting lousier and lousier... not v gd to start wif oso... was breathless after jus 40mins or so... and went swimming in the aftnoon... Its been quite some time since we went as a group alrdy...there was me vix wj tc and lm... 5 of us altho we din really swim ha except for tc.. we had a long chat in the pool... After dat we decided to have dinner at geylang... whoo nice food~ had some starters when we got dere... you tiao wif soya bean and then we had the famous beef hor fun... its v nice la... ha and our fatty vix took us for a walk thru the streets whr the prostitutes came out to display themselves and look for business.. This is my first time walking thru that street and i really pity them.. Its like they stand dere for all the old men to ogle at em and ask them for a price.. There were a handful of pretty ones lor.. and i tink they wasted their life by doing this.. Some of them started to approach us and we hurried away.. and decided to go home and dota since we had no whr else to go... haiZ seems like im getting lousier at every thing.. every game is getting harder and harder to win... even had to resort to backdoor to win lor..zz somemore its not match...its against pub.. someone having fun in sentosa today wor... and the sun is v unfrenly la...so hot... wonder how that person survive at the beach..

Today woke up early to go work la and first thing i got there i got one whole big stack of notes to shred... and i thot shredding was fun... it totally sucks and the machine keeps getting jammed.. and the worse thing is i will start work at 8am nxt week and theres a new seating arrangement... = ( i like my present seating arrangement so much la.. went to vix place to mahjong aft wrk and i lost lor..sian And sheng and I proceed to watch our joLin concert.. It was damn nice... you can hear the power of her voice live....! and shes a dance queen la.. I like all her dances.. totally worth the money.. i regretted not getting the front seat. Hope xiaozhu will come to have a concert in spore.. I'll definitely get front seat tics... And someone tried to scare the hell outta me... Its been a long time since i had this feeling.. ur shocked till u feel a lil breathless..kinda feel like someone threw a 10kg stone at ur heart..dats how it feels k... man utd jiayou..!

im kinda shy to say this la ok.. and i had quite a no. of courage cells dead jus saying this...
I really really really kinda miss you..!

2007-04-05T01:08:00.000+08:00

I'm worried sick.....so many questions running thru my head
are u alrdy asleep?
or are u still goin out so late in the nite?
is it safe to do so?
wad if it isnt?
are u dere yet?
m i goin nuts?

2007-04-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

sat was the guys last day at work and also charzie's and meiyun's hoying's as well so there were lotsa sweets and chocs on my table when i got to office.. and we all took alot of emails and contact no.s from ppl and gavin wanted us as in the guys to leave at 11 so din really got a chance to like take some fotos wif the ppl dat are leaving.. actually everyone is leaving except me..haiz.. kinda depressing. Dunno why im kinda afraid of these situations since young. Like when i left my primary sch and moved outta my familiar neighbourhood to a totally new one. Then at the end of sec2 when i gonna split to a different class wif my besties and then sec4 grad... leaving all the familiar faces... my class and ever so fun nCc. Then there was 1st 3 months in jc which everyone was so united and close frens and in the end splited up again as some left and classes were re arranged then j2 grad and there was parting wif bmT mates who shared all the tough times together and mP basic course ppl who shared even tougher times and pround times when we performed ndp05 and the orD and now this... like ppl come and go... will people jus come and dun go? anw ya so together wif all the guys we went to vivo to have carls jr again and had a wlk ard.. b4 goin home to prepare to go to amos's birthday party.... while someone went drinking and couldnt walk straight aft dat ha... and woooo man utd came from bhind to win 4-1.. dats like so amazing...

Had a haircut and changed the colour of my hair on sundae... not quite used to having short hair now...altho i had short hair for like 2 yrs in Ns... and as usual attended the monthly CoG parade. The juniors' exchanges are all v nice... congrats... and celebrated our dear patricia's 21st birthday at some restaurant in little india..ha i forgot the name of the place. And they proceeded to clarke Q aft dat which i din go along....went home to dota and msn instead but ha someones not online.

Today is my first day back in office with a new sitting arrangement which most ppl are jealous of (loL) but wif quite an empty office.. empty to me at least... like wad jennifer says.. it really feels different and she can sense my boredom without all the familiar faces.. looks like i have to have lunch alone for the rest of the week and mayb next week oso and the week aft next due to voicemail except for the occassional lunch wif tF and sBo... hope i can reg the compy tmr... and cant wait to start sch ..

where are YOU~

2007-03-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

Not a bad weekend for this week.. As usual for saturday went to work.. for the people who dun work on weekends...jus to let u noe its v sickening to work on week ends especially if u have to wake up early in the morning. its like for the entire week u have alrdy been waking up at like 630 but on a fine saturday morning u still hafta wake up at such an unholy hour... and the thot of waking up makes u to not enjoy ur friday night becuz u cant stay out late..zz And so...always got owned by the Zz-monster.
Went to viVo after work to have lunch wif zhanHui Bay and yanGwei.. ha we had carLs Jr and i had my usual Beef chilli cheese fries also known as aH-na fries ha cuz the sauce taste like some indian curry but its goSu~! and we visited sHeng at samsonite also ha...like went in the store to disturb. Can i have a look at all the bags around haha and poor me only went home to nap for 1hr b4 moving out to town to meet junyi rOmeO paT and Leongwei haha...like so long nv see him la loL. wanted to catch mrBean but all the tix are sold out across orchard road all the way to 11pm lo... Zz right..... so we jus have dinner and played dose farni farni games at the pS arcade... This stupid game for lovers lol its a shooting game something like time crisis which im v proficient at haha. The diff is in this stupid game u get to seat in a car and shoot gigantic buGs instead of people. This game is for lovers becuz it will giv u a compatibility % between both the players after every round.. And loL junyi play wif patrick haha and i think they got like 79% right? lol both of u are meant for each other haha. Later i went to vivo again for shenghua to knock off and drive me back to the east and we played mahjong over at fatty's hse... heh i won again ha.
Had to wake up early today even tho i slept at like 430am the nite b4. Cuz its qing ming jie 1st day and hafta go sin ming temple at bishan to paipai aH-ma. nice of me right...1st day go paipai le... ha and get to carry ming si ard also.. play wif my 1yr+old cousin haha run ard pillars like kids lol. u see the smile on her face u will jus melt lor ha. saDz nobody play mahjong today aiWee jiejie nv come..think she on the plane somewhr ard the whole la ha.. sian tmr goin to work again... and this is the last week for alot of ppl le... sian everybodys leaving leaving only a few ppl behind i tink...zZ
haven seen somebody for quite some time alrdy lor...=( this genius is gonna lose her way around cck tmr haha and be wary wor lol rmb nowadays molesters taste not so good le ha

2007-03-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

My wallet was found. The moment i reached office today my dad called to tell me my wallet was found in my letter box with the cash gone but evrything else was intact. Yup altho the guy was bad to take the money but it was kind of him to giv me back everything else... Grateful for that. thx =) to the guy somewhr out dere who took my money.
Watched TMNT today...was quite a nice show... kinda reminded me of my childhood days... I'm a very big fan of them back then.. And i also finished the last episode of shen qing mi ma.. Very touching.. learnt quite abit of sign language from this show haha.
Tmr gotta work again... Hope somebody will agree to mr BeaN..

I think i realise the harder you try to hold on to something....
The more it seems to slip away from you

2007-03-23T00:40:00.000+08:00

WaD is wrong with me....! someone tell me pls. i am damn pissed with myself la. I actually LOST my WALLET today. ok I went out i saw the bus coming and i ran for it... while running i felt something hit my ankle and i actually thot it was one of the fallen coconuts on the pavement as that particular pavement usually has lotsa em.. then on the bus i realise what hit my leg was actually my wallet which had fallen out of my pocket while running. omG i alighted from the bus 2 stops away and ran all the way back only to find it gone.. super pissed and sad. Lucky i was clever enough to not put my I/C in my wallet as i always left it in my coin pouch. ok now i can forget about the cash.. but my atm card my safra card..my kbox card.. and all the cards la.. and most importantly i lost that 2 piece of paper which i kept for 5 yrs alrdy... jus thinking of it pain me so much..zz haiz.. if im not wrong this is my first time losing my wallet lor.. I think im destined to lose it cuz i regain most of the cash in the mahjong session jus now. My tiles are like damn good.. usually i will feel abit scared if i get good tiles dunno why.. because usually my pai ping is not dat good. Won $60. ok now i need a new wallet.~ =(
And tmr still nid to work... and the day after tmr oso.. saVe me pls
and pls hope the person who picks up my wallet is a kind soul...and return it back to me pls

hey genius! have you eaten ur dinner? mus eat lar dun skip meals can.. wait till u feel the full power of gastric pain then u'll regret.. Why din u let me buy dinner for you!! if i did i might not have lost my wallet alrdy..zZ

2007-03-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

woke up late today...i tink the alarm rang or did it? i seem to rmb in my half-awakened state i turned it off and went back to bed... but luckily i reach office on the dot exactly this shows that haha.. im fast~ But the first thing i reached office...gavin was telling GB that sandy wanted me to do voice mail... sIan extra workload...and means i hafta eat lunch alone le =( I tink i shall also gic a last day date to em soon.. But dunno why something is holding me back.. its like part of me wanted to leave but the other part doesnt want to.. hmm guess its only a matter of time i leave no matter how reluctant i m.. really hope school starts soon. haiz... dunno why im still coughing like nobody's business. Theres like a never-ending load of phlegm in my thoart.. argh
Thinking about sec sch days... haha kinda miss the feeling we had during that time... something in me wants to have dat kinda satisfaction back so...ha eh lets form a team to conquer the dota fraternity leh... mE Fats qJ wJ Leon bP jus nice 6 ppl can rotate wan? altho we all have different commitments and stuff but it is also a way to make us closer oso wad.. rmb the times we had when we played cS and starcraft and sG... yah the same we can do so in dota.. then we can get back the kind of aura we once had..

heya geNius! smile* la k? dun have so many problems la.. i'll sing you a song for every problem u have ok....cHeer up!

2007-03-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

First day going back to work after my break. Quite enjoyed myself yesterday cuz i really put most of my worries behind and spend time with 2 of my frens altho we din do much jus driving around getting lost visiting schools playing mahjong but its been a long time we went out on a whole day kinda thing. Was quite afraid of goin bac to office because i dunno how it will be like after everything. The moment i stepped in.. i can feel it. Its no longer the place it was. Kinda empty kinda cold it seems. yup and ppl asked how i was and everything becuz they knew i was sick... but din really ans.. Dunno why din really felt like speaking so i jus nodded my head and a weak smile.. And yah broke my record... on a day which i dun really feel like speaking i get the most no. of calls.. a100 of em. zZ guess im reverting back to the stupid attitude i had during the sec sch days..but its a different feeling.
Somebody came back to office today. Lets refer to this person as 'geNius' becuz its troublesome to always say somebody. As predicted geNius came back during my lunch hour. altho it seems to be a coincidence but...nvm. But then someone called to tell me that geNius was back and i happen to be downstairs alrdy and my mind was upstairs and din really notice wad was happening ard. But this geNius saw me but refused to even say hi. Cant help but make u tink its destined that we wont meet right? For a moment i thot i was on the lift up when geNuis was on the life down. haha jus tinking of that would make u naturally say 'wtf'~ its like u catch a bird waking up nxt day to see it turn into a rooster.
Yup ppl are saying that now the office feels so quiet. I kinda miss the noise during the past few weeks. mayb its because the main noise-makers are gone. But we kinda nid the noise.. Hope a few more happening new ppl will come in. And yah la. one was supposed to be in today la but Mr Hao Xin Ren because dunwan to trouble ppl for a few mins now is in trouble for 3 months. clever har mr tF? told ya dunno how many times to tell e person u interested in call center but u dint...zZ swee~! orbi now end up in e-submission dept. see how u die. all the best to you. I can expect hearing your complaints over lunch for the next few days alrdy.

sentosa sunday?

2007-03-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

They left or rather that person left... yup I did get my message across but not in the way i thot i would.. mayb its becuz i dragged it for too long and circumstances dint allow me too.. but guess it wouldnt be any different. Haven recovered from the fever i had for the past few days and so din go to work today.. wonder how work would be like now that some people are gone.
Recently watched a drama serials about this guy who have only 3 more months to live... Have you ever thot wad are u gonna do if u have only 3 more months in this world? How are you gonna live your life knowing when its the end..? I thought about it for quite sometime...haha i dunno why i always think about these kinda thing. I remember last time when was in sec sch i would think of something like if i wanna commit suicide how would i go about doing it.. and a few yrs later i decided on an ans.. I would lock myself in a car and slp in the air con.. I suppose that would be the most painless method... Ok back to the original 3 mths thing...
My basic idea is to not have any regrets.. I guess that would be everybodys idea right? First I would really like to spend more time with the people that accompained me thru a large part of my life.. namely my close buddies Fats sHeng wJ Lm Qj kK gY the usual ppl who meet up every week.. my ncc ppL tF KanG... my jC ppl...meL irV sTepH meiYi.. arMy ppL Jy KelLy paT rY.. and also my family altho im usually not on v gd terms wif but i guess when one has only 3 mths left wadever misunderstandings are usually not important alrdy.. I suddenly have this feeling of really thanking these people who are always dere no matter how sad how frustrated how whiney how unreasonable how irrittaing how pesky i am.. I really like to cuz recently i juz got to know someone's opinion of me... that im a pesky and irritating person... So now that i know i m i really appreciate the ppl who put up wif me thru different phases of my life.
Next I would write wadever i wanted to say to people that left footprints in my life no matter how deep or shallow the print might be... might take 1 month to do so. That is considering i write 24 hrs a day cuz there are really alot of ppl on my mind... Other than dose mentioned above there are still ppl like kim sy kw nat wen abo mx and the list goes on..
Lastly..and the most impt and i tink everyone shld do regardless you are dying anot.. And that is to let that special person in your life know how important she/he is to you. You never know someday you might never ever have the chance to say it.. might not even have the chance to say goodbye. Take the time to do some things for the ones you love. =)

Juz realised that life can be v fragile... Forgive me if i sound v morbid..
Miss you~

2007-03-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

Had quite a tiring weekend. v little sLp. and im like slping everywhr i go...like on the mrt, on the bus, at work, while waiting for somebody or something and yah its jus slping all over the place la.. Friday went to IT fair after work with sheng and his jc classmates. And oh my... its super duper crowded la~ and we walked round and round and round dunno how many times cuz everyone got something to buy except me ha. and while waiting outside the hall.. i slept.. imagine how tired i was that i can actually sleep with the noise and crowd... And we ate ku-shinbo~! thats the choc fondue in the pic. I dunno why becuz there was any occassion or anything but we jus ate the buffet... and yijies dad came to drive each and everyone of us home..so nice of him. And i actually enjoy sitting at the bac of the lorry with the breeze.

early on saturday morning and im pissed off alrdy becuz GB made me sign in at 9am jus becuz i was late for 5 mins~!!!!!! and i explained it was becuz of the security guard who made me sign in dat caused me to be late and guess wad she said? "Too bad".. if thats the attitude she givs thats wad im gonna giv her...we'll see. After work i went to NTU wif yangwei and edwin.. actually i have no purpose there its jus dat im hoping to bump into someone dere.... but that particular someone was no whr to be found in the NTu compound so i thot i go to NUS to attend the talk that i was supposed to attend. And yep i met that someone along the way! haha Its fate its fate~!! And alot of unforseen circumstances cropped up but ha its weird. cuz i actually have a v heartwarming feeling when u do things for ppl.. And this was the first time i felt so frantic cuz i couldnt find someone.... like searched up and dwn the area for 1hr plus la.... Yupz and surprised to see weif weiqi and the ncc guys dere haha.. and so i went out wif em aft the open hse.

Slept like 5am on sat nite due to the man utd match lor~ and woke up at 930am to go play soccer at simei as promised. like only 4hrs of sLp zz... and in the aftnn i went to NuS again~~ to listen and record the talk that somebody missed the previous day... haiz but cant hlp feeling sad that evryones leaving alrdy even someone...sobz. jus tinking abt it can keep me awake no matter how tired i am.

2007-03-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

Been kinda lost lately... trying to occupy myself wif things so that i can get my mind of the matter but its pretty obvious i cant. monday nite i went swimming tuesday nite i went for driving and last nite, movie wif colleagues and today soccer session wif em too. Im tired but i still tink about it..... And all of u people are leaving... the guys hafta go becuz of their enlistment. So they are probly leaving on 31st march. Sheng wants a job change so hes leaving next week. And most of the girls are leaving too becuz they dun like it here. I guess i might be the only one left bah. Mayb coming to work will be even more meaningless without you ppl.. And she still doesnt talk to me. I don't know if its i dun dare to talk to her? or she doesnt want to talk to me. Mayb its both~ I really have alot alot to tell her altho it may not change anything but i really have alot to tell her. Its jus that i don't know where to start.My feet are feeling sore after the soccer today. I ran like a horse.. or izzit my stamina is deproving.... shit coming from everywhr... bad week..

Yah and i wrote a story... i wrote it in chinese. its a simple story la but i can actually write one...ha but sadly its a sad one..

2007-03-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

Monday~! haiz mondays are always like the saddest day of the week mainly becuz jus tinking of monday makes u get the cruel fact that u have a whole bloody working week ahead of you~! And monday callers are always troublesome like some retard dint wan to encash their shares but went to idiotically click encash on the website and then called to make an appeal and when the appeal doesnt go thru they make a big fuss over it. zZ

Having nth to do in the evening i and edwin went for a swim in the evening. People who know me would know that i dun tell ppl my problems easily and im v gd at putting on a happy front as tho im totally fine even tho im not. I will only share problems wif my bunch of v close frens. So im surprised at myself that i actually opened up to a person that i noe for not even 1 month. This comes to show that i share some affinity wif edwin. Better keep everything i told you to urself~!!! And oMg I cant believe im totally outwitted by someone today and this person doesnt like me mentioning abt her/him here. I must say that im always confident that im smart and possess quite a high level of IQ. But this saddening monday.... dear brothers~!!!!!!! Fatty!!!!!! i totally lost...and somemore to a female!!! ppl bully me!!!! Arghhhhh!!! and saturday is the D-day for me hope i have the courage to face it.

And yah this is the 2nd time in my entire life that i can watch a show until i cry. I not weak ok~ dun be mistaken but this show is really really touching.. i have nth to say. The show is not out on tv or vcD yet. Its called corner with love by lead actor and actress Xiaozhu and Da S. I watched it on youtube. If you guys have time u can enjoy the show too.

Did you really came into my world?

If yes...how could i possibly ever let you leave?

If no...why do i feel so much pain in my heart?

Disappointing weekend

2007-03-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hmm ok first lets start with friday... Its the day the A lvl people get their results and because of that they all left the office at 1pm leaving around 8 ppl to do the job of 30+ ppl. And unlucky me happen to fall under the 8 ppl category and had a grand total of 70 calls for the day and 55 of them are after lunch. So its like the headset is stuck to ur head and ya hav no chance of taking them out. But ok i had fun making fun of wen mi shu's height tho..ha NUSP=national university for short people...lol and oh some of them had gd results and others hmm not so gd i guess. People like josephine and our wen mi shu got like double As lo and they dun look like people who get double As haha but nvm. Proud of em too.. congrats! Come NUS FASS accompany me~! ha

ok i tink this is the 1 out of the 2 highlights of the weekend. And that is ta-da..~! after a 7 mths wait i finally got my new handphone...woohoo. And i like it alot.. its a black samsung z720. ultraslim 13.8~ Saturday morn~ i din go to work =) and i thot alot of ppl wun but instead they all went except for me and sheng. But its ok. kinda enjoyed myself because i went for a soccer session wif tingF and frens...ok mayb not really enjoyed la but it was ok. It was supposed to be a ncc soccer session but instead dunno why they din come. nvm its ok to play wif a more pro bunch like tingF yiqin yong lin songwei... din see them for quite some time. They used to be the cream of the crop during our sec sch days.

Was disappointed because i was actually looking forward to going to mOs dat nite but unfortunately the organiser wen mi shu nv ask ppl properly then nobody say anything in the end~ saded~ so I went to chijmes to catch the liverpool vs manutd match wif sheng and his frens. The atmosphere dere was great wif ppl cheering and stuff. The match was damn exciting wif alot of chances and i was pissed because the better team lost. Its obvious that liverpool dominated the entire game and they were unlucky to concede that goal lo. =(

Today....is the most boring day out of the whole weekend. Driving in the morn...and i was like practically driving wif my eyes half opened the whole time then i came home to rot because the plan of watching dreamgirls wif the rest failed as many ppl cant make it. so sad that all the plans for today was not carried out. Din even go to coG cuz it was raining heavily at 430pm and junyi said he dunwan go le so i din go as well. haiz rot at home and watch 'corner with love' the whole aftnn. Its getting damn damn nice la cuz these few episodes are v v touching i mus say.. and XiaoZhu and da S are both my favourites. Jus came bac frm a long nite jog to tampines. Tired. hope this coming week will hold more excitment. im lacking of colours in my life. zZ

2007-03-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

On that dreadful monday morning... poor me suffering frm a lack of sleep had some problems climbing outta bed. After much difficulty brushing my teeth wif my eyes closed i suddenly realised that im supposed to reach office at 830 instead of the usual 8am~!!! *#@&#@!.. becuz of that i feel shits in the morning.
In the course of torture, called boredom at the workplace, one can always hear the growling agony of the suffering hungry stomach. And finally lunchtime came but we had no time cuz we had the 1230 slot and there was people mountain people sea so we decided to buyback old chang kee nasi lemak. And omg i cant believe i qued for 20 mins and i ate the worst nasi lemak in my entire life. becuz of that i feel shits in the afternn.
Ok so there was a plan of goin to the movies after work wif the guys as we all agreed in the aftnn. But at the end of the day everyone was tired and the movie session was postponed to the next day and in the end we all went home.. BORING~ becuz of that i feel shits in the evening.
And yah so we caught the epic movie yesterday. and i jus felt that i wasted 7bucks on the movie becuz it wasnt as nice as somebody said... but nvm cuz 4 of us guys had great talk over dinner and we decided to start a secret campaign known as the Anti-HE campaign becuz we all suffered under her tyrany and experience the the fiery of evil this very day. This campaign is supposed to commence today as our roles are assigned. First phase will be the attack of D3 haha. (ok all this is jus for fun due to the boring nature of our work and we are only trying to seek entertainment so do not get angry if u happen to see this and u noe who we are refering to lol) Lets hope we will put our sufferings to an end~
Ha and then there was the appearance of a female dwarf char~ aka as wen mi shu. very interesting person. And her pet phrase is "later got briefing~!" she repeats this sentence ard mayb 30 times a day. And she has the supernatural ability of catching evildoers and their sudoku game. For the weekend the dwarf has demanded dat we watch dreamgirls and also to go party at MoS. Haha come to think of it its been quite long since the last time i went clubbing. =)
Sounds weird but recently i have developed an interest in dancing ha. esp hiphop. Mayb its due to watching too much dance vids of k-one and xiaozhu and omg their dances are like totally 'wow!' ha so me having nth to do have alrdy pickup some dance moves frm Jing wu men~ and also a special edition dance frm k-one~ lol some day shall xiu yi xiu haha. this interest even brings me to the extent of trying to psyco fatty and sheng to go hiphop dance classes wif me ha. who noes the next time ppl see me... im known as 'wu wang' King of dance haha

2007-02-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

Its a new beginning again. The year of the pig. Chinese New Year..one of the long awaited festive seasons of the year is here again. Altho i cant really go pai nian this year it was still a enjoyable 2 day holiday away from work. Besides the mahjong sessions which sees me winning a grand total of $60 i also celebrated wheewen's 21st birthday twice this week. Haven seen him in awhile until his party at his home on the 3rd day of cny. And me and 6 other ncc guys got him a adidas jacket for a present. And the thing is most of us wanted one of the jacket for ourselves becuz it was so nice. Enjoyed catching up wif the platoon too as we were reminded of all the funny and stupid things we did when we were sec sch teens. And on thurs i had a 4d class gathering. It involved people like Meixing Joce Cher Lisel Teresa Weehon Sk Weili Loony WeiF weiqi and of cuz wheewen. thats the 2nd time we celebrated his bdae. Seeing some of them makes me hav a urge to hug them real tight. We had fun at settlers playing bored games and me team of me meixing and weehon managed to win 2 out of 2 games of a game called sequence. Im a genius ha. Thai express was also cool and the birthday surprise we planned went well too and we stayed at the esplanade to chat till the last train before making our way home.
Today.... saturday woke at 6am to set off to work and haha knocked off at 1030am. that was a lil unexpected and me and the guys went to have the legendary wanton mee again. This time without a que. The girls went for a singing session. Saded i wanted to go actually ha but nvm since they din invite. It was alrdy a week since i told my relatives to go ktv. Since it was early i decided to proceed to cj's hse for the gathering and oh my was i early and it was disappointing dat there wasnt any mahjong over dere. oh wells ha cheers to cj and junyi for organising tho.
Hope the coming week will hold some unexpected happy turnaround in things for me. yes~! i mean you!!!

work work

2007-02-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

thank to my dear cousin angie dat my blog is up again.... still looking out for a nice new skin becuz this skin is hers. ok its the new year and a new workplace. To let the people who still tink im in the ABN.Amro credit card sales line....i've alrdy found a new kind of boredom in the form of a CPF Board customer service assistant. Basically my job dere is to sit ard most of the time waiting for calls from uncles and aunties to ask if they will be receiving money from the government. I get as low as 5 calls a day to like mayb 20+. can u imagine 5 calls in 8 hrs...? so for the rest of the time im either stoning or crapping wif my colleagues. And did i mention dat the people dere are a fun bunch... all the temps dere are like students waiting for A lvl results. Since they are only 2 yrs younger than me i find it a total joy to communicate wif them. And ive made some really cool frens. and its like cool to be bac in a environment wif female humaniods after 2 yrs wif all guys and even worse...half-like monsters like erm pat. And then deres this cute person...like totally...haha nvm i shld not mention abt dat. And omG the FOOD~!! amoys st~! today i jus experience the ultimate wanton mee ever together wif sidekick mega YUNTUN. For $3 u get a mountain of char siew wif massive wantons... even sheng cant finish his share.. and heard that deres other super foodies like the legendary lor mee and the wicked nasi lemak.

ok i jus read this frm my godsis's blog and its quite interesting as in it shows how kids perceive love....

love is...Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it. Touching words from the mouth of babes.What does Love mean?A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?"The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."Rebecca- age 8
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."Chrissy - age 6"
Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."Terri - age 4"
Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."Danny - age 7"
Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"Emily - age 8"
Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."Bobby - age 7"
If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"Nikka - age 6"
Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."Noelle - age 7"
Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."Cindy - age 8"
My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."Clare - age 6"
Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."Elaine-age 5"
Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."Chris - age 7"
Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."Mary Ann - age 4"
I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."Lauren - age 4"
When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image)Karen - age 7"
Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."Mark - age 6"
You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,"Nothing, I just helped him cry"

its amazing how kids can see the things that most grown ups cant.
I came up wif my own version of love.
"Love is when you buy breakfast and leave it on her table early in the morning =P"
"Love is offering a cough sweet when you realise she is having a bad thoart = )"

Major Revamp

2007-02-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

ok...as people who knows me knows that im not very good at the html stuffs so this site might take sometime to be up again. After 1.5 hrs of figuring out the codes and stuff i still cant find out why my past entries are gone once i changed the skin. If anyone noes pls kindly tag and let me noe. thx ha ok its like 140am and im gonna wake up at 6am and im still not aslp so actually i wanted to blog about wad happened the last few days but circumstances forced me to do it tmr so dats all for now. sobz yet another long day at work tmr.

2007-02-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

Ok it has been a long time since i last blogged and i dunno why is it that everytime i blog im either feeling angry or sad or somehow negative haha.. mayb when im happy i forgot abt blogging .....

Now it is not a good start to the year.. in a way its one of the worst thruout my 20 years of life. Out of the 31 days in jan i dun tink i can even find a day that i can say i have a gd day. Firstly some problems came up between me and a v good fren of mine due to some relationship stuff and thrust me dun ever get into this kinda problem wif ur fren. Since anyone is able to view this i shall not elaborate because its a sensitive issue. jus noe its the ultimate depression of my life. You will noe it someday if u gonna lose a gd fren of yours who u noe for ard 7-8 yrs. Nevermind anyway the way he sees me or the way he tink abt me is different alrdy..im somesort of like a baddie....

Next, being outta cash due to cashflow problems... this is another serious problem which mayb more ppl mite face... i cant finish counting wif 5 fingers of many close frens ard me are facing this problem oso. altho some of the reasons for coming into this situation is really like u mite say 'they deserve it' but me being a good fren.. i always v v helpful to all the close frens i have. So u are not a close fren of mine u might wan to consider being one.. These are the resons ppl have or things ppl do to fall into the poverty situation.
1. gamble on soccer betting and lose and trying to win bac the money and ended up losing more
2. calling some overseas country and not knowing how much it costs
3. the company ur working in doesnt really pay well..ok i mean the pay is pathetic.
4. ur in a bad mood and u do every other thing dat costs alot of money like drinking massive amounts of alcohol trying to get urself drunk.
No offense cuz im not trying to pinpoint anyone but yah haha i still help these ppl becuz i care for them altho im one of dose in the situation as well. (im in situation 4 and somehow 3 oso)

After so many things happening in the past few months i realise im actually i v friend-orientated person. Like i care for my frens more then my family i dunno why. Im always dere to help them wif problems altho sometimes i made a mess out of it as well. and I dont giv up on them. Ok im not boosting dat im a v gd fren but haha i noe im a gd one. Wad are the things u find in a fren?
1.they hlp u when u are in nid. (ok..i do hlp)
2.they are patient wif you when u throw a temper at them (yah most of the time i am)
3. they listen to you pour ur woes out even if its like 3am (ok altho sometimes im half aslp)
4. and they try to talk u out of ur bad habits. ( definitely do)

dats all for now...
=( its nearing valentines day and i dun have a valentine. sobz
mayb i can consider gaying out wif rongyue le. Qing ren da shou xun..

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2006-12-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

Looks like im goin to go thru yet another lonely xmas.. People are so busy nowadays that its so difficult even to talk to someone not to mention meeting up. Sometimes even frens that u consider close dun even have the time to let have a mean with u or even speak to you. And it even makes u feel more alone in this harsh and cruel world when the person u care for most doesnt even bother about you and is busy meeting up with their frens and the impression they giv is something like ' im v busy meeting different groups of frens everyday' and they wun even take bits of their time out for u and they are supposed to be the people that u care for the most. Firstly, you might be the one caring for them and they might not have the same concern for u or 2nd, they jus take u for granted. Even when they are at home they will have alot of stuffs to do like chatting with someone else on the phone, doing sth online and a million more excuses. And they are supposed to be on holiday and they seem more busy than dose working

Since im not expecting a nice xmas for myself i hope ppl out dere can really enjoy a merry xmas

.......

2006-12-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

I haven been blogging for more than a month alrdy... and this month alot of bad things happen which i do not wan to further tak about it anymore becoz it will bring extreme sadeness to myself. I dint expect the baddest time of the year to be after my army days. And i feel that all these incidents have changed me to another person...someone who i dun really noe oso. Its scary if the last time u talked to me is a mth ago and then u talk to me now. I tink that u might actually have a qn in the bac ur mind like ' is that really alvin?' Frens.... im losing myself and yah the situation is quite bad.

ORD

2006-11-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

rAfter a 1yr 10mth wait the long awaited day is finally coming. Strange dat for each passing month i've been yearning for this day to arrive faster but now that its here I feel a certain reluctance to leave APC. Although its v far from where im staying...tho there are many things im unhappy about... tho theres always alot of work to do and tho our dear oc keeps denying us of our offs and instead giving us guard duties, im still feeling reluctant to leave the place. Coz despite the unhappy times we have our fair share of happy times in camp. Training is tough.. Parades are tedious but we have our glorious moments too. Who can forget the 2005 SAF day where APC put up a splendid slow march pass the VIP stands. That kind of standards was deem impossible for other units or even other countries' armed forces to achieve. And also the National Day Performances of both 2005 and 2006. The crowd was treated to a fantastic display of precision drill performances together wif black pipers fireworks motorcycle outriders. We have achieved so much for the past 1.5yrs. Mayb its the thought of goin to work in a new unfamiliar place that makes me wan to stay in APC longer. But yes i guess my yuan fen wif this coy is up and i have to move on to a beginning of a new chapter of my life journey. I would like to thank my peers from the various bunks and also our commanders which contributed in helping us put up the various top class performances. People like Lt CAi zhiwen MsG Giam MSg Zaini Sgt Eddie Sgt Poh Sgt Francis and PC Chong will always remain in our hearts.

Birthdays

2006-10-26T00:18:00.000+08:00

I dunno why am i different. Now i tink dat birthdays are absolutly redundant. Its v saddening to tink in such a way. And i feel even worse because i have reasons to further support my point. Firstly u spend money or u made other people spend money on you.
2nd. you have to accept the fact that you are getting older and another year of ur precious lifetime is gone.
3rd and u feel sad because the person that u hope would be the first to wish u didnt wish u happy birthday at all.
i tink i nid psycological help. any of u study psycology out dere?

Whats going on in their mind?

2006-10-24T15:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it really makes me wonder how some people think. How they analyze situations and den decide wad to do. Like someone did a kind act and people dun even say a thank you and might even treat it as if it nv happen. Are they really dat cold? I cant help but wonder.
Been back from taiwan for quite awhile. Bought lotsa presents and food for people. Had them mostly distributed out except for huiwen's tie dan, coz she like too busy and jia's bdae prez and she'll only be bac in singapore in dec. Although nothing serious happened in this trip but it certainly changed my opinion on this group of people dat i went on a holiday wif.
Surprising how a few days together can totally change what you think about them.
Been bored these few days.. like nothing much to do. Finding jobs is irritating. So i'll jus settle for Asiacom Business Networks Pte Ltd. (ABN). Its a foreign bank and im suppose to help them market their credit cards. Dunno if im up for the job coz im not really good at promoting stuff.
I realise almost every year i spend my birthday the same way. Its boring. Last year i was in camp staying in and yup mayb this year too. Not v happy birthdays oso.

I'm fucked up!

2006-10-02T01:32:00.000+08:00

i dunno why im saying this but i mus say it! -> i'm fucked up. My heart sinks with every ticking second. Illusions of what might be forms in my head. Half of me tells me to give up and get on with life. The other half of me tells me to persist on. I dunno what should i do.
First let me list the reasons why i tink im fucked up.
1. Im indecisive
2. Im selfish and inconsiderate
3. I lost most of my frens because i neglected them
4. and then i blame them
5. No one loves me
6. i keep losing nowadays even 1v1s
7. because i let my emotions get the better of me
8. im poor
Thats why i tink im punished to lead a lonely life for the above reasons.

Rain~

2006-09-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

i love rainy days... since i was a kid... I used to tink that the rain was sent by God to cleanse this planet when i was a kid. During those years..whenever it rains i would jus like run and jump ard in the rain when the other kids would rush indoors. As i moved on to secondary sch. i started to have to travel to sch alone... i always insisted dat i wun bring an umbrealla along no matter how my mum persuaded me so. She would always say bring in case rain.... when she is on her way to the storeroom to get the umbrealla i would then jus rush out of the door to the lift and i would nv hafto bring the umbrella along. After a few similar incidents she gave up trying oso. Whenever it rains i would be walking in the rain no matter how big it is... Its quite a distance frm the mrt station to sch... Now that im a few years older.. im in the midst of alot of problems that i wouldnt care about when i was a kid.. Things like frenship problems work stress study stress bGr problems. I wished that the rain would come occassionally to wash the pain away from me.. Its good that these few days its been raining.. Becoz when i stand in the rain i wun noe that the water on my face are tears or are they jus rainwater...

bu kai xin~

2006-09-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

the past week was alright...the SAR21 fam shoot and stuff except dat i have a fren dats feeling very very sad. Felt bad that i couldnt do much to help alleviate her mood. I tried but it doesnt seem to work. Mayb im not good at consoling others bah.. no matter its my frens or bunkmates or buddies i always feel helpless when they are sad or angry. How i wish i am a gifted sweet talker. In this way people around me can be so much happier and in turn i will be happier too. dun u think so?

Dun b so sad k.... if u ever see this

CoG week shld be my last le bah...

i dunno how to describe how i feel

2006-09-16T16:41:00.000+08:00

I dunno why but i jus feel unhappy.... Even tho im like goin to ORD in 2 mths time but i still feel v sad. i tink dat my grp of frens are not as close as we use to be. They hav their new frens and gerfrens and new pastimes and hobbies dat we no longer share the same feeling dat close frens shld have. Some indulge in bad habits which result to money wasting and ended up havin no money to go out together wif the usual grp. Others would like to spend 25162738 hours in front of the com instead of goin out wif us while the rest desperately finding new ways to land a gerfren dat they dun bother about the others anymore. Looking at them and tinking bac on our past days makes me feel depressed as i wonder wad makes us become like this.
In additon some of the people dat i feel dat they are close to me ( it might be a wrg feeling) are either lost somewhr out dere and no longer talk to me or get to meet up in the past 2 yrs or are actually not close to me at all.

I nid a pill dat can allow me to forget everyone i noe and live a new life...

Wcg ended...

2006-08-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

Haiz .......the much awaited wcG has ended like in a blink.. And me...lost everything.! Saded* Mayb its bcoz my team mates are all inexperience bah... its their first time playing competitively.. Bu gan xing...like jus lost bcoz of a few wards.. but i shant blame anyone coz i more or less knew this wld happen... hope we learn frm this bad experience and improve the nxt time bah..
So jealous my fren won the entire Wcg. They are champs of asia. Sad that i cant be a part of it but on the other hand i feel proud for them.. caught a glimpse of the match and it certainly proved to be exciting.. The atmosphere was good too as they were playing on stage wif a whole hall of audience wif applause and stuff like that. Comgratz as their efforts finally paid off beating Lz a thai team in the finals. Shockingly is that they beaten Zenith oso! who were unbeaten for almost 2 yrs?.. Hope this wld improve my dota oso. cant hlp but feel disappointed and empty oso. Gotta wait another year for the nxt wcG.

nDp

2006-08-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

Tml is finally nDp....(actual)! after doing so many ne shows previews family days with all full crowd the actual seems jus like another one of dose saturdays where we would rot at the indoor stadium waiting for time to go by and then do our usual performance and go off late in the nite. Really hope that tml wld be a great show after all the effort we put in. Long evenings and night at the stadium during weekdays and saturdays. All the KFCs 2 piece chicken meal the organisers fed us with. there was a week when we ate KFC for 3 consecutive days. I tink ive eaten enuff chickens for the rest of the year. Din really get to rotate the weapon wif the pryos on ha. tink it wld be quite cool. Jus hope that i wun drop the gun lol.

After nDp the long awaited WCG is here!!!! *excited. Hope my team at least get to go past the first round as i dun tink we will be able to win the 2nd rd coz winner of grp 12 <-my grp 2nd rd vs Asteriods winner.. which is i tink dn*? or zenith? Jus hope we can go past the 1st rd...thats all i ask..the rest is mayb we can win by luck ? haha Hope i dun screw up the drafts. Im excited yet at the same time stressed and scared. But tink i will be able to conquer this fear once i get my hands on the keyboard ya..? This is my event of the year.. even greater than capL. It is to me jus like is is nDp to johnny hah.. mus do some finger excercise lol

yup and Sunday is Cog day...! shld be Junyi kelly and andrew's last cog... so her im praying for them that everything goes well and no screw ups... no weapon drop no memory mistake.. wrg marking and blah blah blah.... hope i can make it there in time for their performance...

After all the happy stuffs...its bac to me again... I alrdy v sick of army life.. im like doing the same things over and over again jus that its for different occassions. And out of camp there is like nth else to do.. Singapore is such a small place... and ppl like wj and guys are entering army alrdy.. tink im starting to drift further apart frm my frens... Its v saddening.. And recently i get frustrated at the slightest things... haiz.. i nid sth to cheer me up awhile..... i really nid it..!

3 more mths to ORD!

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2006-07-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

Saf day is finally over. The initial thot was everythng would be less tiring after Saf day. but...haha it din turn out so. it seems the same. Training for anniversary and ndp. But anniversary training is definitly much much more interesting than Saf day. Had Mon and tues off. Spend a nice day out wif the guys and ate alot of good stuffs. Good stuffs usually meant expensive. $34 on 2 meals lo.
Everytime i felt happy i always ended up feeling sad in the end. Its like i always wanted to share my joy with a special person but everytime i have a great achievement or being in a good mood or have some troubles, i always find that this particular person that i consider special is jus nv dere.. i really wan to have someone to live my life with. thats you...

Shen Ping Le

2006-06-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

Fell sick... fever since sunday. I guessed i mus be too tired. Rehearsals both saf day and ndp.. and omg ndp rehearsal ended at 10pm lo. i booked out at 11pm..so late on a saturday. late nights and also running in the rain to bar-celona that night to catch the spain vs saudi arabia match. Finally having a break frm all the work altho i din wan it to be in this manner la.
Anyway SAF day is jus 2 days away.. hope life will be simpler after that. With ndp only about a month away, im 4 mths away frm ORd. And hope we can make the holiday trip to taiwan.
Wun be having any weekend this week. =( and the World cup is ending... like so soon.. why cant it be longer. Isnt it exciting to hav matches to watch every day.